𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲, 𝐥𝐞𝐭'𝐬 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞 ↯ 𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍 𝐁𝐔𝐓𝐋𝐄𝐑

𝐋𝐈

𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡 𝟐𝟎𝐭𝐡, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟎
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austin's pov

this morning lillian woke up and made coffee, which is more than she's done in weeks.

"austin," she says to me and the sound of her voice startled me since i haven't heard it in so long.

"yeah?"

"coffee?" she offers.

i nod "sure, thank you."

she grabs a mug from the cabinet and pours me some coffee before handing it to me. "austin... i um— i've been thinking and um, i think i would do better alone."

"alone?" i question.

she nods, "yeah, as in healing alone."

god i hope that doesn't mean what it sounds like.

"well, i can give you space," i offer. "i'll sleep in the guest room."

"okay," she quietly says "that works."

i walk over to her and place a kiss on her cheek "i'll see you at work."

she musters up a smile "'kay."

"i love you."

she nods before walking away from me.

my heart drops to my stomach and i am left standing there with a horrible feeling.

⚘

lillian has just walked onto set after getting into costume. as she does, dacre walks up to her.

i watch as he speaks to her with a sad look on his face before giving her a hug to which she doesn't return. she just stands there. after the hug, she flashes a fake smile and i can read her lips as she says "thanks, dacre. i appreciate it."

i talked to him before lillian got here and he asked me how she was doing. he told me that he's known and loved her parents for years now. and he knows her pain. but it's nothing compared to what she's going through and he understands.

before he leaves, he kisses her on her cheek.

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it was another empty day in a quiet house.

lillain and i are sat at the table and enjoying spaghetti together. something that used to be her favorite, now she's barely touched her plate.

"austin," she states.

i look up from my plate at and her "yeah, baby?"

tears form in her already sad eyes "we... we need to break up," her voice croaks.

"wh-what?"

"we need to break up," her voice says more firmly now.

"where is this coming from, lillian?" i ask.

she licks her lips before saying "it's selfish of me to continue being with you when i am emotionally unavailable and completely shut off from all loving relationships," her hands begin to subtly shake and her lip quivers "i am thankful for all that you've done to help me over the past month but i can't take the pain anymore," as she continues, her voice fills with more and more pain. "i'll be moving into a hotel and only focusing on getting the movie finished."

what do i even say without crying? i place my fork down and nod without meeting her eyes "okay. lilli, i'll always be there for you whenever you need me. i'll wait for you. i love you."

i get up and kiss her on her forehead as tears begin to run down my cheeks.

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bunny's corner

i'm so sorry 😞