I shattered my own soul

in the dark again

I think I'm in the dark again

I want replace this smile with a frown

but I can't

Don't ask, Don't tell them

It's not bad

You're fine

I think it's getting bad again

The room doesn't light up

I don't have a smile anymore, only an act I put on

Even my pen is to heavy to pick up and put my feelings on paper

it drags with every move, I regret every word I put on paper

My face flooding with tears, my pillow smells like the acid of sadness

Lost screams still inside te feathers, caught in a moment of complete hopelesness

Now the fog is coming back, the thoughts flew away and the darkness has attacked

I just want my smile back

Don't look for me

you'll get lost

You'll get lost in the corridors of hell I've walked my entire life

I don't want you to feel this

I don't want you to be trapped

I once read a poem abut depression where a soldier was stuck in a hole

He was digging hoping to get himself out of there

But then another soldier jumped into the hole, the soldier was angry because he was risking his life

but the second sldier said he had done this before, he knew the way out

it's a lie

you don't remember the way out

I wish I did