I shattered my own soul

I wanna forget

Yesterday I sat here with a friend

We were talking about when we came to an end

It's been a long time, still waited too long

We talked about you, your strength and your soul

Well how would you view that well how do you act

No, no one was ever enough

You were the most special never did me wrong

With closed eyes I played it all along

I was just a boy back then, you a terrible dream

Had told myself, and promised myself

That it closed, gone withall the sorrow

And I would forget but I can't do it again

Because the pain that remains it is deeper than that

I would kill anyone if it'd made me forget

Because that shitty feeling that was born there

That will never go away and you did that and you should be aware 

Yesterday a realization came

You pushed everyone so far away

All the terrible things you said

That friends hated me but you loved me

Your statements were as good as crazy

Especially with the alcohol then you lost it

Now easy to say that should have left

But I would have loved to have done so much more

I was just a boy back then, you a terrible dream

Had told myself, and promised myself

That it closed, gone with all the sorrow

And I would forget but I can't do it again

Because the pain that remains it is deeper than that

I would kill anyone if it'd made me forget

Because that shitty feeling that was born there

That will never go away and you did that and you should be aware

you damaged me

With the pain of all your drowned deeds

And that's how you left me

Looks sick would you even recognize me?

you damaged me

With the pain of your drowned deeds

And that's how you left me

Looks sick would you even recognize me?

I was just a boy back then, you a terrible dream

Had told myself, and promised myself

That it closed, gone withall the sorrow

And I would forget but I can't do it again

Because the pain that remains it is deeper than that

I would kill anyone if it'd made me forget

Because that shitty feeling that was born there

That will never go away and you did that and you should be aware

So I wrote this with one of my friends and there are some things that are not normal to say in English that's right we use it as kinda our lirrle mark on it also it's a song soooo yayyy ummm idk what to think about it honestly but yeah