WEAK SPOT [YEONBIN]

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Soobin couldn't sleep tonight. They lay on the bed together, he can feel Yeonjun's arms around him, hugging him close.

Soobin sniffled quietly. A sound of a soft rush of air.

Soobin blinks into the darkness, staring at a spot of light seeping from the window. His thoughts kept him up and his eyelids heavy. He couldn't cry in front of Yeonjun so he pretended to fall asleep early that night.

Yeonjun was wasted so Soobin knew he'd follow.

Soobin watched the small light blur then clear, each time he blinked.

Some more time had passed. It was nearing 3:00am now.

"Hey, you okay?"

Soobin freezes, eyes widening.

Did I imagine that-

Suddenly, he's being shoved to his back, now facing the ceiling. Yeonjun peers down at him.

"You're crying. I knew it."

Soobin blushes, covering his face.

Yeonjun's lips curl downwards. He leans forward to look at him closer.

"What's wrong?" Yeonjun nearly whispers. Soobin swallows, staying still for a moment before wiping his tears. Yeonjun reaches for the boy's hand, he holds it tight, bringing it to the side of Soobin's head. Their fingers intertwined.

Soobin was loving Yeonjun's weight against him. "I... I never liked myself, Jun. but now I-" Soobin pauses, eyes closed. "I feel like I can't even respect myself anymore."

Yeonjun's brows furrow, his head then tilts to the side. "Babe- you're- that doesn't make sense? What happened? Why don't you respect yourself? I admire you so much. Others too, probably- like, fuck, that's probably why they can't leave you the fuck alone."

Soobin laughs suddenly, "That is definitely not the reason I get bullied Yeonjun. You know that."

Yeonjun sighs, "Well, it's definitely a small percentage." He leans in more, pressing his lips against Soobin's. When they part, Yeonjun stays very close, a soft smile adorning his face.

"You're too cool to cry. Seriously."

It only makes Soobin cry harder. A shocked expression bow on Yeonjun's face. Soobin could tell by the slight furrow in his brows, eyes a bit wider.

Yeonjun loved it when Soobin cried. He just looked so beautiful. It used to be more of an issue in the past.

Soobin crying. Yeonjun suddenly needing to adjust his pants.

Of course, not every time did Yeonjun find Soobin beautiful when he cried. Sometimes he found himself feeling scared.

"Something is wrong. What is it? Still about Beomgyu?" Yeonjun whispers, tapping Soobin's chest.

Soobin squeezes his eyes shut. "Um, yeah... It just- it reminded me of some past, um- some past experiences. I don't know- I've never viewed sex so public as- enjoyable or 'chill' because of it."

Yeonjun thinks about the kids during the field trip all those years ago. Of Uncle Jowoon and Aunt Lisoo screwing on his daddy's desk.