Marino's Heir

Chapter 16

I knew it after the last sentence that she was going to jump, that she's too naive to listen to me, and to understand what I want to tell her. Aurelia's scream echoed in my ear. Just like yesterday... everything happened so fast, and I....but I wasn't ready. I was never ready. For someone to die. Yesterday was fast and unexpected, I was so nervous and scared I didn't think clearly and I lost someone. I felt guilt was eating me, I was about to fall apart and let depression, sadness, and overthinking consume me. Then I was so close to death..so close from what the doctor told me. But again, I wasn't ready to die or let anyone die, I'm not ready for another fall. Another shock. Another grieve and sadness.

So I did what my senses told me to do. I did what anyone smart and fast at response would do. I ran as soon as she said those last words towards her and before she could completely fall off the edge and far away from our reach, I grabbed her leg with a hand and the other holding the edge so I wouldn't lose balance or fall off.
"Damn....Uhhh Jeeeez, you're heavy!!" I said, holding her strongly, so she doesn't slip from my hands. "Cleo, leave me...I beg you." She said, crying. "No! I will not!! Are you out of your mind?!! You want to die because you think no one loves you?! Because you have no hope?! Well let me tell you something! It's fine to feel and see hardships in life! It's alright to see love and hate from people! It's fine to go into tough and sad situations, into grieve, into depression, into all of it! It's alright! You'll forget it! You'll move on cause that's life! It's like a fucking test and your purpose is to get the full mark despite all the hard problems! You got to move on and ignore all of those things that break you!..and smile, enjoy the little great moments in it! How can you forget the happiest things and the saddest no?! That's not possible! You just hold on to it but you're able to forget it!! NOW COME OOON!!! GIVE ME YOUR HAND! YOU'RE HEAVY!"
I kept shouting, my heart was beating so fast almost bursting out of my chest. I was so scared at this moment. She stopped crying and suddenly looked around her and panicked. Clearly listened to what I said. "Oh my god!!!!! SOMEONE HELP ME!!! PULL ME UP! PULL ME UUUP!!!!" I laughed pulling her with the guys beside me as well. When she got in, I fell and sat down on the floor, my right leg crossed down and I rested my arm on my left knee. I breathed heavily. Then looked at the others. Jason inhaled his hand on his chest then exhaled slowly. Aurelia ran and hugged Natasha. Ryder sat beside me and sighed. "That was close." I looked at him. "Yeah..........Can I?" I said then after a few seconds of silence between us I asked. He looked at me with an eyebrow up, questioning can I what.
He won't mind I thought. I rested my head on his shoulder. After that, he looked at me for a second, then said.."Sure." Looking straight and took out a cigarette,  lighting it and smoked.

"Hey y'aaaaaall. Where's everyone?" We heard Sofia shouting from outside. "We're Here!" Jason shouted back and looked at us. "Natasha... Don't do that again, ok?" He said and left. "Mhm.. Okay..." I stood up and stretched before leaving. "I'm sorry..." I turned around. She was behind me, looking at the floor embarrassment was all over her face. She knows it's wrong but didn't think straight. I held my chin, thinking and looking away from her. "I'm the sorry one. Heh... I mean... You need a new door." I said and laughed slightly. They all looked at me in a way. I crossed my arms and raised an eyebrow. "Yeah, you're right. It's okay. But thank you." She said and came close, taking me into a hug.
"Thank you for saving my life, Cleo."
She said while hugging me. I didn't hug her back, but I didn't push her either. I may be cold but I'm not that much cold, I am not it's just that my father told me to be like that. I honestly have no reason to be cold to people or hate them just like that. Everyone is ok. I won't be what he wants me to be just because...

"People are envious, they're all betrayers, backstabbers, you can trust none, love none, the more you're cold and closed and SO full of hate, they'll fear you and no one would dare and disappoint you, not even look you straight in the eyes."