Dear Kyle
I'm losing hope in being sane. I feel so crazy it's been a while since we talked. It's been two days since Zayn's death you can say I been feeling crapY. He was so young and broken. The mother of my dear friend was broken, the way she looked when we all went to her home to pay our respects was so sad. But it got me thinking of when he was happy. He wasn't ever really happy till he had a drink in his had or a joint near those lovely lips of his. Or till there was a slight visibility that he was high on cocaine. But I think he was happy when that boy mac showed up on his door steps to tell him he loved him to even though he didn't understand how to be gay was. Over all Mac made him happy and sad till his last days where all the conflict on his sexuality caused the bullying at school. Maybe Zayn was better off I'm sure he is.
On a lighter note I was stalking Kades page after I ran into his parents at a function me and my parents were invited to where they bragged about their oldest son who lived in New York who managed part of their business there and how their son Kade would soon graduate from school and move back with his beautiful model girlfriend. Exciting, not. I might sound like a total narcissist for this but to have two guys I cared for move on to date total models is kinda sad. Like the whole he can't do better then me never works for me cuz you both moved on and well there is the fact me and you Kade were never a thing. Ugh and I guess the same for you Kyle.
Anyway I think I'm going crazy and there's less and less chance of sane in me.
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RomanceHe loved her but he was to late. Dear Kyle I hope you never find this but I am idiotically in love with you. I know your getting married with that blonde bimbo (sad face) and I also know we haven't talked in a year or more but I still have hope for...
