Persephone- Completed

Twenty Nine.

I sighed as I looked in the mirror. 

"I really don't feel like going out Mia." 

"That's exactly why we are. Stop stropping. I've actually made the plans tonight for once. It's not like it's out out. Just us and a few drinks in the central London. Chill out." She looked at me as she curled her hair. "You look cute." 

"I look like we're going to a bar and I'd rather be in bed face timing my boyfriend and crying myself to sleep." 

"Drama queen. You're going to love it."  I sighed and drunk from the bottle she'd given me 20 minutes ago. I didn't even feel like drinking tonight. I was just doing as she'd told me to. I was a wreck today. After the conversation with my dad. I knew now I'd have to tell Em about what could happen if it doesn't go well. But that's a lot of pressure to put on him right? That's why I haven't told him up until now. Now I didn't have a choice. 

"Why aren't my texts delivering to him. Why does he have his phone turned off?" I threw my phone onto my bed and sighed, putting my head into my hands. 

"Maybe he's busy Pops. Don't think about it. He could be out of cell service. You know better than anyone how patchy it is in town." I huffed. She was right. He did mention he might be going camping with Blake. That's probably why I couldn't reach him tonight. But I really wanted to see his face. I missed him so bad. 

"Okay are you ready to go?" I looked up at her and she stood in front of me, also wearing jeans  and a black jacket. Kind of matching which was nice. 

"Yeah." I stood up and she ran her hands through my hair neatening it up before grabbing my phone and putting it in her pocket. 

"I'm keeping this tonight because you'll just end up refreshing your texts to see if it sent all night." She rolled her eyes and pushed it into her pocket. "Come on." 

Mia pulled me out of my room, down the hall and down the stairs where my parents were stood. 

"Where are you two off to tonight then?"

"Not a clue. Mia's planned it all." I looked at my dad. I was still pissed at my mother. 

"Just the pub. Nothing special. But we might be out all night." She looked between my parents whom she had known almost 10 years now and they knew I was safe with her. As long as Mia was around I was safe, and we'd never get into huge amounts of trouble either. 

"Okay have fun. Let us know if you need us to come pick you up." I nodded at my dad and Mia pulled me out of the house. 

"Which pub are we going to." 

"Oh it's not far away. Its up to you, we can walk like 20 minutes or we can go get the underground." 

"Let's just walk. I could do with it." She nodded and we started walking. 

We walked in silence as I got lost in my thoughts. They always came back to Em no matter how hard I tried to distract myself. It was always a matter of I wanted to tell him something. Or I should show him something. 

No matter what it was, my brain found a way to take it back to him and that how I knew I was in love with him. Because even when my parents were burning my world around me and I could feel the flames getting close, I just wanted him close. I didn't even want to put the flames out as long as he was there to hold me whilst we burned. I knew this was going to hurt, when it ended.  But I wasn't building up walls like I should be, I was making him a home in my heart, letting him stay. 

"Stuck deep in thought there Pops?" I looked up at Mia and took in a deep breath.

"Sorry. Just thinking about how I tell Em that I might have to move across the world if my father doesn't like him. That's a lot of pressure to put on someone I've not even been with that long." 

"Stop overthinking it. We will tackle that at the time." She rolled her eyes. "Can you try think about something else for just 5 minutes?" 

"I've tried Mia." I sighed and ran my hand through my straightened hair. "I really wish I could stop thinking about him. But every single thought runs back to him. No matter what. Give me a random thought and I'll tell you what my brain thinks." She smirked and let out a blunt laugh as we turned down another road. 

"Daisies are Mia's favourite flower." She crossed her arms and I laughed. 

"Daisies are Mia's favourite flower. Mine are roses. Em sent me roses. I wonder if he knows I like roses. Especially the off white ones he had sent. They're so pretty. I miss him." I raised my eyebrows. "Next." 

Mia let out a loud laugh before pulling her phone out and checking it. 

"Okay. Um-" Mia looked up at her forehead " Does the voice in your head ever run out of breath?" 

"What?" 

"Well we think like in a voice, like we're talking to ourselves yeah?" 

"Yeah." 

"Well, when we're rambling on to ourselves out loud we have to stop to breathe right? Does the voice in our head need to breathe?" I laughed loudly, throwing my head back as I did. She was mental. 

"Okay lets see. Do the thoughts in our head breathe? I don't think they do. My brain never sems to stop. Even now its just going on and on and on and on and on and okay why am I thinking about this. Oh yeah. I miss Em." I gave her a side eye and she chuckled. "Next one." 

"We're nearly here." 

"Oh but I was enjoying that." I crossed my arms and stood in the middle of the empty road. 

"We can play it again later if you want. Come on. She ran behind me and started pushing. 

"God you really want to get drunk huh?" 

"No but they do." 

"Who's they?"