Mistakes • AFI (Currently Rewriting)

Chapter 42 - Nightmares

Trigger warning

--- Melody's pov ---

I opened my eyes and was met with a white coloured ceiling. It looked like a pearl white colour. I then lifted my body up and my eyes widened in fear. The pitch black walls I shoved into the back of my mind. His pitch black walls I shoved to the back of my mind. I can't be here. I fell asleep in Ashton's bed next to Ashton and now I'm in a place worse than hell.

It was exactly the same as the last time I visited it. A white bookshelf full of books his grandparents brought him. I used to enjoy reading them to him so he could atleast claim he read them. His games consoles laid on the top of his dresser with his tv. He doesn't use them anymore and the dust that covered them proved it.
The pile of dirty clothes in the corner also confirmed my worse nightmare.

I was in Ethans bedroom. But it looks exactly the same as when I broke up with him... when me and Ashton got together. The day we created Leon and Milly.

"Oh thank god" I muttered as I felt the bump still their. They are both still here. Then maybe this is a dream. If it was a dream or a memory I would have not been pregnant... right? Maybe this was more like a nightmare!

"Good morning princess" His dreaded voice rang in my ears as I turned to him. Even in my dreams he still scared me. The creepy smile on his face, the way he sat on the chair in the corner of his room, the way his eyes kept focus on me as if he was seeing if I would do something bad. God I fucking hated him and his creepy ways.

"Your not real! This is a dream... a nightmare. I'm going to wake up and I'll be in bed with Ashton"

Ethan then chuckled before shaking his head at me. My hands gripped the bed sheets tightly trying to stop me from reacting. His laugh only made my fear grow.

"Do you truly think this isn't real? Do you even know the difference between what is real and what is fake?" Ethan questioned as I just stared at him in fear. I didn't want to answer him but the look on his face suggested I should speak.

"I know this is a nightmare Ethan. Your not him your just a figment of my imagination... my darkest fears. You sound and act like him but your not him" I cried knowing he was trying to get into my head. I was losing hope tha tit was a nightmare. Don't nightmares wake you up when the scary things come? Or is this my brain telling me something?

"Oh but I am him Melody. I am your minds view of him" Ethan said with a smirk as my hands flew over my ears. I wanted him gone. I want to wake up. I want Ashton. I want Calum, Michael and Luke. I want Bailey.

"Don't hide away Mels. We haven't even gotten to the best part. The part where I tell what I did to them" He said loud and clear before walking over to me. I knew what he meant. Fuck I wish I didn't know what that sick twisted fuck head meant. It's a nightmare. Its meant to show my worst fears. I didn't want to listen to him.

"I killed them Mels. I killed everyone you hold dear to you. I killed Zeke, your Dad, Naomi, Zak, your Mum, Calum, my sister, Michael, Luke, the others and Ashton. God I enjoyed his death the most. I did it so we can be together Mels. Forever and ever"