Mistakes • AFI (Currently Rewriting)

Chapter 44- Truth about Ethan

Massive trigger warning

--- Alex's pov ---

I didn't end up going far from the house. Their was this small path near by that led to the beach. It was mine and Mums favourite place. Well it used to be her favourite place. Now I would say Heaven is her favourite place.

Phoebe didn't know I came here when I was stressed out. I doubt Phoebe knew about it at all. It was place I come to when ever I was stressed. When ever i would think about him I would come here. Maybe it was the crashing waves or the soft sand but I felt calm for what ever reason.

Only one other person knows about this place and that's Jack. After his first trial he wanted to check up on me. At first i thought it was weird cause it most definitely was weird. A lawyer appearing at your front doorstep to check up on you... it was fucking wierd. But I eventually caught on when my sister smiled at him and he blushed. I'm pretty sure you can't sleep with your lawyer but he wasn't hers anyway so who knows.

That was three years ago. Their loved blossomed into something borderline annoying. He was here Monday, Wednesday and the weekend. I know that cause I came back home on those days. Maybe he did care about me as well as Pheobe. He even left his Dads firm and took his best lawyer with him and a few others. I don't know why he told Melody he was dead. I think he thought if she heard who he was related too she would go to someone else.

Then two years ago Jack's caring side grew bigger when our Mum died. Phoebe was a wreck when we found out from Logan our carer for when our Mum was working late. Jack eventually moved in to comfort us both. But I didn't need his comfort my sister did so I went to the one person I hated. I shouldn't have gone to him I knew that. He hurt me and nearly killed me but I still did. Ethan was like a drug. Once you met him once you could never say no to him.

Eventually Jack saw me leave the house late one night to meet him. I don't know why Jack was up at one in the morning but he was. He didn't even have anything to worry about cause I was going to end things with him. I had to end things with him cause i found out he was dating someone else. He was dating Melody. If i had known before i would have ended it earlier. He told me i was the only one. I fell for him the same way Melody most likely did.

"You know jeans aren't that great for swimming in" A person pointed out as I turned to them. It was Ethan. He doesn't come down to the beach until summer time cause of his beach house. That was how we first met actually. Another reason I knew it wasn't him was because this wasn't the first time my mind has made me think he was here.

"I'm not going into the sea" I answered as he just nodded his head before joining me on the sandy floor. He then started humming some kind of song that I think I knew. I then turned to him to ask him what it was. But he was also drawing letters in the sand. 'E.H + A.R' it was our initials. I remeber him doing that before when we spent nights on the beach together. I thought it was sweet but it was just a game to him.

"Too cold or is it Phoebe trouble" He asked as I just stared at the sea. Hes a part of my imagination so he should already know why I'm here. A small "oh" left his lips as we sat there in silence.

"She... I think I was over reacting when I shouted at her earlier" I mumbled before I glanced up at fake Ethan. A look of concern was plastered on his face.

"What did you over react about?"

"I thought she wanted me to succeed... I thought she wanted me to stop failing" I answered before dragging my fingers through the sand. I wanted to make something but the only choices I had were a sand hill or a sand hole. A castle would have been preferred but I didn't have a bucket and the sand is too soft to do shit with.