Secrets (h.s)

Guilt

Harry's pov

"HARRY!"

I turn around seeing Ella being dragged by the guy that just came looking for her. I ran after them. He ran down an alley which I followed. Ella was unconscious in his hands which slowed him down. Before I can even come within a couple meters close to him he got in a black van and drove off. I saw no point in chasing after them, because obviously I wouldn't be able to reach.

I groaned in frustration. I could've helped her but I was so stupid not to have her beside me. I can't believe I couldn't stop her getting kidnapped. I pulled on my hair really frustrated and angry. I let out a loud yell and punched the brick wall beside me. my knuckles started oozing red blood, I didn't care though. She got kidnapped and is most likely getting killed and it's all my fault. I can't forget her scared voice when she screamed my name.

I started sprinting to Luke's house and texted all of the guys to meet me there. the cold wind hitting my face. Once I arrived at Luke's house all the guys were there. I was breathing heavily and out of breath. I pounded on the door, Michael opened it. I went inside and started talking.

"S-she -g-got k-idnapped. andicouldntstoptheguywhokidnappedheranditsallmyfaultandsheyelledformeandshewassoscaredandithinktheguyisgoingtokillherandidontknowwhattodo" I was gasping for air on the first sentence but said the next all in one breath.

"Mate chill, take deep breaths, and why are you crying, what happened?" Louis asked.

I didn't even realize I was crying till I touched my face and felt the wetness of my salty tears. I took deep breaths till I calmed down and then strated taking all over again.

"Ella got kidnapped by this creepy guy, and he was threatening her and she looked so scared. She screamed my name and I couldn't even help her. She looked so scared and he took her away and I really think he's going to kill her."

Niall and Liam looked worried. Louis had a bored look and Zayn looked not amused. Luke was pulling his hair and was biting his lip in worry. Michael, Calum, and Ashton looked confused.

"Wait, is this the girl you were saying you met at the park and it looks like she got raped and beat?" Ashton asked

Luke just nodded not looking like he registered everything yet. Then he just say in the couch and cried into his hands.

"I can't believe. I was supposed to protect her. I didn't even meet her for a full 24 hours and I feel like she's a younger sister to me. I can't believe I got this attached to her in this short time period and now she's gone."

Louis still looked bored so I asked him and the rest of he lads to come to the kitchen so I can talk to then privately. Once we entered the kitchen I started taking to them.

"How the fuck are you completely cool about this Louis?! I'm saying she got kidnapped and most likely is getting killed right now, how can you have no emotion on your face and look like you don't give a fuck?" I tell him

"Because I don't Harry. I hate her and I always have, and I'm happy she got kidnapped we all told her to kill herself and now we don't have to worry about her being in our lives. Why do you care so much Harry, you hate her we all do we hurt her and call her names and shit, now why all of a sudden do you care?!" Louis yelled.

"I still don't like her Lou, but she's most likely getting killed right now and it's all because of me. I could've stopped them but I didn't Lou. I feel so fucking guilty right now. I can't get her delicate fragile voice screaming my name. She looked so fucking scared. this girl has a past and let me tell you it was never a pretty one and we made it worst. I know I called her names and told her to kill herself but I never thought she would actually die. Do you not understand Louis I can't live with this guilt. I need to find her, and we can't get the police involved and you know why." I reply to him.

"I agree with Harry. I don't even know why we were so mean to her. I still don't like her but I can't live knowing she's dying right now. My mom did not raise me like this, and she would not be proud. I need to at least help find her. I don't think she ever had a peaceful life here so at least she will be in peace at her grave." said Niall

"Don't talk like that Niall. We will find her Harry, if you guys want to stay here then be our guest, but we're going to find her and I think the other lads will agree." Liam added.

Zayn just scoffed and Louis snorted.

"Team Zouis forever, eh mate." said Louis while fist bumping Zayn.

I rolled my eyes heading out of the kitchen to tell the other guys are plan. They agreed and will not ask the cops for help. They asked me why I didn't want the cops but I couldn't tell them that. The only people I ever told why was my main four mates and it took my five years. We all split into groups of twos and one group of three. Me and Niall. Michael, Luke, and Calum. Ashton and Liam. Hopefully we will find her.

Ella's pov

I woke up in complete darkness. my mouth was tied with a rope between my lips. my hand were tied tightly behind my back on a chair im guessing and so were my feet. I felt soar and drained. I wanted to scream for help but I couldn't. My throat felt so dry that if I were to talk it would crack. I felt fresh tears stream down my face as I remember what happened. Would he kill me fast, or slowly and painfully till I beg him to just kill me. I think it's the second choice. I heard a door be slammed open making a loud bang in the silent room also shaking the floors.

"Morning sweetheart." said the creepy voice that belongs to the bastard known as my dad.

"I told you, I will make you regret your choice." He whispered in my ear sending shivers down my spine. Next he slapped me. without a warning or anything he just slapped me, and it hurt like hell.

I felt him slowly take of my shirt and I was trying my best to let out any noise and squirmed but it did nothing. The only noise that came out of my mouth was muffled mumbles. I started to move more and it took all of me to do so since I had no energy. He started pinching my stomach with his long fingernails till I felt blood come out, so I stopped moving. He started leaving kisses on my bare shoulders, and I dont care if he shoots me but I will not let him do that to me. As much as I hate to say this he's my dad and what he's doing is fucking disgusting. I knew if I started moving a lot he will just hurt me more, so I used all my strength left in me and pushed my body so I fell on the ground. The ground was cold and hard, most likely cement. I could feel the side of my head bleeding but I got out of his touch and that was the only thing that mattered to me at the moment.

"You bitch, what the fuck do you think your doing."

He pulled me up by my hair. I feel like he ripped most of my hair by doing that. By now my eyes were adjusted to the dark so I can just barely see the outline of his figure. Even though I couldn't see his eyes I felt his cold stares on my body. he then started punching my stomach and I puked. I puked all over my lap and I'm guessing his hand. It wasn't my fault if I didn't eat for a long time and I already felt sick.

"You disgusting fat ass. Get the fuck up." he yelled at me

I was starting to question how stupid he really was. I was tied to a fucking chair. He than untied me and dragged me by my hair to a room. He turned on the bright lights which blinded me for a couple seconds till I got used to it.

"Taking a fucking shower bitch. You have five minutes." that was the last thing he said before he slammed the door shut.

I looked around and I was In a small dirty bathroom. I took off my clothes and went in the shower. I washed up as fast as I could making sure to wash every part of me. I also started drinking some of the water because I was still extremely thirsty. Who knew when was the next time this would happen. I got out of the shower and he threw a towel in the room. I wrapped it securely around me but still held it just in case. I walked out and pointed to my body because I needed clothes. He smirked at me eyeing me up and down.

"You don't need clothes, they will already be off by the time I'm done with you"