Secrets (h.s)

Nightmares

Harrys pov

I woke up sweaty and scared. The dream, no nightmare felt so real. I sat up straight and stared at the couch. I took deep breaths calming myself and reminding myself that it was only a nightmare. It felt so real though. I could even smell the blood. What scared me the most is how I felt like I couldn't breath when I saw her in that state. How I felt myself slowly breaking, until I completely did break. This girl is becoming more and more important to me day by day its actually scaring me. How I hated her so much cause she reminded me of her. I had no right to bully her for that reason or any reason. Now she means so much to me. I feel myself caring for her more and more day by day.

I could still hear my heart beating in my ears. I had a uncomfortable feeling in my stomach so I quietly made my way upstairs to check up on her. when I arrived at the top of the stairs I go in her room as silently as possible. when I didn't see her in her bed I got so worried but then I heard singing.

The beautiful, angelic voice made relief rush through my body. I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding. I make my way to the balcony in her room and see her sitting on the wooden floor. The closer I went to the balcony door the more I could fell the night chill on my bear skin. She was singing a song I never even heard of.

'But im only human, and I bleed when I fall down. Im only human I crash and I break down." she stopped singing and I could hear her quietly crying.

her cries broke my heart. I feel so useless right now but I feel like she would like to be alone. I couldn't help it though, The more I heard her broken cries it hurt me. I slowly made my way beside her.

"Ella." I say softly.

she freezes but quickly recovers and wipes her tears. She loos at me and gives me a small smile. Her cheeks are flushed pink and so is her nose. Her eyelashes are still wet. Shes wearing one of my addidas hoodies and grey sweatpants. Her hair is messily on the sides of her face, and even in this state she looks beautiful to me.

"why are you up?" I ask sitting down on the wooden balcony next to her.

"nightmare, you?" she says looking at me with her now grey eyes.

"same." I reply.

"harry, what would you do if I died. Like how would you feel?" she asks me timidly.

I didn't what to reply with. I seriously thought she was dead a couple minutes ago and I felt like I died to.

" I don't know what I would do Ella. I would be sad that's for sure. I would feel like a piece of my heart got ripped out. I would feel a whole bunch of pain in my chest. I would brake down. I guess I would also be dead but mentally." I tell her truthfully. My eyes starting to water thinking about my nightmare again.

she gives me another small smile and says "thanks harry"

"no problem. Now come on im freezing." I tell her to lighten up the mood a bit but I actually was cold.

she doesn't say anything just gets up from her sitting position and walks into her room and I follow behind her.

'Um harry c-can you sleep with me.' she asks quietly looking at the ground. Shes swaying in her spot while blushing.

" I knew you would want me in you sooner or la-"

"not like that harry!" she practically yells. Her cheeks are now red and I cant help but laugh.

I knew which way she meant but I just wanted to mess with her.

"I know which way you mean I was just messing with you.' I tell her slightly chuckling.

"of course" I hear her say to herself.

I go in the bed with what im currently wearing right now which is sweats and no shirt. She didn't say anything which confused me. She goes in the closet and comes out wearing a green day shirt and metal pole. Where the fuck did she get a metal pole from? She places the pole in the midedle of the bed and lays down on the other side of it.

"what the fuck is that for?" I ask motioning at the pole.

"for you tot stay on your side. Im serious if I see you on my side in the morning I will get mad." She says threateningly.

"okay I just asked." I raise my hands up in surrender.

"goodnight harry." she says with a smile.

"night Ella."

GUys im so sorry for the late update I lost my phone and I hate updating with computer or laptops so if I have lots of mistakes its because of that I'm also having difficulty uploading a new chapter of undefeated but Im trying me best:)