One Way Or Another | Sansang

- Sudden confession -

Yeosang smiled softly listening to the words without thinking he hugged San tightly, san responded to the hug hugging him back tightly keeping the boy close. "You're the best Sannie..." San fought back a smile and a small blush that was coming up, "Ahh I don't think I am but thanks baby, now now go change." Yeosang giggled running to the bathroom as he changed, but as soon as he shut the door he splashed cold water on his face, thoughts running through his mind. Why am I getting these feelings about him? Why do I feel safe with such a person i have a huge bad feeling about?! Why are you having these thoughts, you are so crazy!  He took a deep breath staring at himself through the mirror, "You got this, yeosang. Don't fuck this up." And just like that he left the bathroom but he gulped as his eyes stared at San, who was taking his shirt off revealing his muscular body, his whole back almost filled with tattoos his arms of course filled with them too, he turned around smirking catching the latter stare at him. "Sangie you're staring." 

"huh? oh- s-sorry!" Yeosang looked away; looking around to not lay his eyes on San again he already knew San was gonna tease him. "Haha baby it's okay you can look all you want I'm all yours oh also, you look very good in my shirt." Yeosang giggled nodding, "Mhm!! t-thank you." He looked up at San who he saw light a cigarette, his abs being fully revealed; yeosang gulped again checking San out fuck why does he have to be so hot? Yet so mysterious and scary to me.

Yeosang kept staring, the way San was tone and can easily look like he can manhandle yeosang made him imagine some things that he has never imagined; he saw San sit down on the bed taking a glance at yeosang who was just staring. "You know you can come here for a closer look." Yeosang widen his eyes, watching san innocently smile puffing out the smoke. "Come here." Yeosang obeyed and slowly walked down onto the bed, looking down at the sheets not daring to look at San even if his life depended on it. "So uhm- you're hot." Yeosang blurted out covering his mouth after what he said the other laughed at him, "Aw well thank you adorable one." Yeosang hated himself for what he just said. You are so stupid why did you just what's wrong with you dummy?! You need help okay okay deep breaths just like we taught ourselves, he thought to himself.

"Thank you." he mumbled softly, San took another blow off his cigarette since yeosang was close he accidentally took a whiff of the smoke; he hated people who smoke or who did smoke , but when it came to San it was somewhat attractive. it was quiet for a few between them til San spoke. "Hey yeosang, I wanna know about what happened exactly. do you know who it could be?" Yeosang bit his lip shaking his head, "Honestly no, I don't know who is crazy enough to do that to me or literally to anyone." Why was he talking about this just now? But I'm not exactly gonna complain he cares for me and probably just waited for me to get comfortable enough for me to speak about it..

"Mmm maybe whoever did is probably likes you a lot." San mumbled chuckling, cracking that small little joke. Why does he always joke at the worst times everywhere?! I swear this man.
"Yeah I suppose.." yeosang started talking, "It's scary though..I was just taking a bath to calm down and relax and I just heard footsteps but now because of it I think my thoughts are gonna be even worse." San blew out some smoke, his cigarette was gone almost. "And you forgot to lock the door, you really do need protection." yeosang took offence to that giving a soft smack to san earning just a laugh from the other. "I was too busy doing things leave me alone! besides the thoughts were getting at me." San blew out the last bit of smoke before putting out the rest; getting in a serious position looking at yeosang. "And what are those thoughts?" 

Yeosang looked back up at him seeing how serious San was, he really wanted to know but he didn't want to fuck it up saying things like he was thinking San was this or that or anything close to that, he really didn't want to talk about it to San since his thoughts were about San; he didn't know how the other would react. "They're really bad thoughts...they make me act up most of the time and leave me scared but-"

"The thoughts are about me aren't they?" 

"I'm sorry wha-?"

"I asked if they're about me, sang." San's voice was drop dead serious, he stared into yeosang's eyes as if he already knew and was reading exactly what the other was thinking; like he could clearly see his thoughts. "I asked something, yeosang." yeosang was in such a bad situation now how was he exactly gonna tell San everything he was thinking last time it wasn't talking; it was more of accusing San for something he didn't do but just what if he did? Yeosang took a deep breath before speaking trying to hold back tears, he didn't want to have San hate him; he makes him feel so safe and neither did he want to be yelled at or have something bad happen to him.

"Okay okay look! I-I have some thoughts like that uhm last time i accused you for the murders and i-i still have those thoughts but it's because it's just i thought some things matched up but i was wrong, there's no way you could do it and uhm I guess since I was raised to not trust people like you and my parents told me that did gruesome things too about it so it's just...yeah and and- h-how we met too it really stuck with me and the way we kept the secret that we already met well was a secret we already met at the gas station from Woo. It's stuck with me and t-the way you say certain things too but I'm just going crazy, but when I'm with you i feel certain things...different feelings and thoughts but when I'm alone i got those! but- please b-be mad, I know I'm crazy and just stupid to think that..Woo has said i think everyone has said it to me, I'm just someone stupid who is crazy and has these kind of thoughts." he finished babbling, keeping his eyes on San who just stared at him; his eyes were dead like he just ended San in a rap battle; finishing him up with the bars he was spitting.

"Yeosang those words I say are how protective I am and will be, you are everything i want to protect. So what if you're going crazy? Yeah you are going crazy but it's fine to have a bad feeling but yeosang I wanted to keep it a secret because it would've of made it awkward when he set us up to meet, he wanted me to be your bodyguard and friend when he couldn't yeo. so what if i look a bit scary? at least people won't touch what's mine." San said. Yeosang bit his lip taking a deep breath, "S-so- you don't hate me for saying all of that even though i-"

"Yeo, I'm happy you're talking about it but when those thoughts come, think about happy thoughts put your attention on something else. And the things don't take them that seriously but do listen to them and how i say it very carefully..you can tell it's a joke but seriously no one should hurt you or i will hurt them." San continued on, "You are literally my sangie, why would i be mad at you for actually talking to me about something? Are you sure you're the crazy one? Cause I sound like one." Yeosang let out a small giggle, "Yeah you're right, I'm still very sorry."

"Don't apologize yeo, it's okay." San hummed, yeosang felt weird as if his thoughts are actually true and San is hinting it; but there's no way, he could never he already told yeosang how he felt and explained the words to him. "Yeosang, I want you to be mine." That's when Yeosang widen his eyes, "W-wha-" 

"I want you to be mine, I want to be your crazy one."