One Way Or Another | Sansang

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Yeosang sat in the waiting room with the other three; he just had his fourth breakdown and was in the corner on a chair holding his knees close to him, the others tried to comfort him however he wouldn't let them. He didn't want anyone to touch him or even try to talk to him. All he could think about was San, he wanted him to be okay and alive. Why was it San and not him? He wouldn't even deny it that he deserved it not San, but he was scared. What if San believed everything Yeonjun said and trashes yeosang away just like that? He shivered under the thought of that but also how Wooyoung rubbed his back for a few; of course he didn't mind it but it was just Wooyoung never ever had to see him like this the last time he had was when his parents passed. 

Yeosang was just staring down not wanting to see the other people or anything, only he could hear was some people talking; bathroom dryers going off and a phone that would ring most likely every phone signs and beeping as well as some walking in the distance. It's like he whole life was now just falling apart, he put the blame on him and knew everything was his fault, he knew he did it but when the others asked 'Why' He wouldn't example why for a couple of reasons. 

He couldn't and in his book he never would or will until he was about to have his fifth breakdown when Wooyoung tried warming an conversation but the silence with a few things in the background helped him drown in his thoughts and escape real life until he realized he can't. "Yeo hey...uhm, I'm sorry I made you cry that wasn't my intention but can you at least tell us why you think this is all your fault? You don't have to tell us completely." Yeosang could just sniffle and look down at the hospital clothes he was looking at, his bloody clothes were tossed in the garbage since the others were going to treat him themselves but the hospital was well..being a hospital. He kept thinking to himself until he whipped out his phone; confusing the others. He wasn't gonna just confess out loud just like San, he wasn't that dumb..right?

Yeosang
I killed two people. I know that you guys do it a lot, but I have never thought or actually have done it. It scares me, what if it's all my fault because of those guys who wouldn't leave me alone?

He only texted Wooyoung this since he wasn't ready to see the reactions from the others..

Wooyoung
Yeo, if San had gave you anything to protect yourself and you used it. You did it in self defense, how you killed them is different in how we do it. There's nothing to worry about, ok?

But how did Wooyoung know San had given him something and he used it? He could've of killed the people in a different way. But yeosang cooled down his thoughts; he was overthinking too much of course he would know, right? Since they're also best friends and maybe San was bragging on how he was gonna go out with yeosang and give him something to protect himself orrrr maybe he just knew San went out a lot, with illegal weapons that would explain the murders he has done.

Yeosang
Yeah but I feel guilt and I'm scared someone's gonna find out and just turn me in, I don't wanna go to jail- I'm too young for that shit plus I don't think I can live without San.

Wooyoung
Yeo, please. You won't go to jail and no one's gonna turn you in since everyone knows who you are for right now, not really everyone but you get the point and we know you can't dummy

Yeosang could do a small chuckle and small smile; finally talking to someone made him feel a bit better yet he couldn't wrap his head around some things, should he even trust these people? should he just run away like nothing happened?

Yeosang
Okay okay but no, wdym? How does everyone know who I am? 

Wooyoung
My dumb friend of mine, do I have to spell it out for youuuu? You're dating San! CHOI SAN!
We're literally a mafia group almost yeo! That's how some people know you, if no one knew you were dating him or knew who the hell you were, some guy wouldn't be trying to steal you helloooo?

Yeo, I love you you're my best friend I trust you as much as you trust me but you have to realize some things now especially since well....this has happened.

Yeosang just stared at the previous messages; Wooyoung wasn't even Wooyoung to him even more although he could sense his childhood friend still being himself he wasn't exactly liking how he met San because of him clumsy self and his friend. It made him wonder a lot but it all made sense now, or did it? Of course yeosang was dumb yet again for not thinking right as usual. He was too lost in thoughts, he wasn't even messaging Wooyoung back since he was lost in it. He felt a hand rub his back again; Wooyoung was comforting him as he looked down at his phone again seeing more messages.

WooyoungBesides yeo, I know San is ok and won't let anything and I mean anything hurt you. That boy is whipped for you since he won't let anyone take you away from him also he's done a lot for you too! I'm your best friend and he would never never let anyone defeat him. 

If he really didn't want anything to hurt me or happen to me he wouldn't leave me alone, Woo. I thought he knew everything that was happening especially withe me..

But what if San did know everything and he just wanted to know what would yeosang do? It made his blood boil a bit, but there was no why; he couldn't stop replaying the scene when he saw San fall to the ground and the person who did it escape, it was too much for him he was about to cry again even though he just stopped. He was about to type back to Wooyoung until he heard footsteps getting close to them then stopping; he looked up a bit to see a nurse holding a clipboard, fixing her glasses and clearing her throat before she started talking. He prayed it was good news and....

"Ahem, the friends of...Choi San, he would like to see you. Please follow me if you want, his room isn't so far away."

All with those words, yeosang shot his head up as he started getting up with the others; the nurse sending him a warm smile before placing her serious face on, the group followed her down the halls, doing a few turns before entering a room. But something made yeosang hold back; he was on the verge of tears, he didn't want to see San in a hospital bed, what if he looked very horrible? Not in that way but you know which way. He doesn't think he can handle it at all, he wasn't prepared. "Take your time, he's perfectly okay." And those words from the nurse slightly made him gain courage as he entered with Wooyoung into the room; he shut his eyes though and heard the door to the room shut since it was a hospital room, they didn't need everyone to know their business or need anymore company. He peeked a bit seeing a hospital bed and a guy; which is of course San sitting up. But what if his eyes were playing tricks on him, he looked at him he was shirtless with a huge bandage that was covering half of his arm and chest; he could see a bit of blood on it but it wasn't as scary as it was watching him laying on the ground with blood pouring out like there was no tomorrow. 

San's eyes slowly met with yeosang's; and that's where he knew his whole world was okay and that San...

San was going to come back, right? They would leave and go back to normal and he was gonna stay clinged onto him like for dear life.

Or maybe not...?

"Sangie?" Hearing San's voice after what has happened, made him want to cry; his lover was alive and he just couldn't believe it, he hated himself for every little he had of San that wasn't about love or anything lovely. "S-sannie?" He choked back on his sobs as he walked slightly closer to the hospital bed; he was looking down at his lover as they were still making eye contact, he placed his hand on the edge of the bed as he almost freaked out feeling a hand, but realized very fast as the flash it was San's. Their hands met and they were finally reconnecting; he smiled softly when he felt a gentle squeeze on his hand; San grinning softly at the other. The three in the back, holding back tears and heard doing small Aww's

However Wooyoung ruined it by sobbing ugly; being dramatic with it though. San groaned in annoyance as yeosang smiled a bit in embarrassment, looking quickly at Wooyoung; San staring at him with a death glare. Hongjoong couldn't help but held back his laughter and Seonghwa on the other hand tried to make the other shut up; but they all ended up in laughter when San added a little comment...

"What a nice way to ruin a lovely moment, bitch."