One Way Or Another | Sansang

- Fucked up -

Silence, that was all that was heard. San couldn't even believe what yeosang said; and neither could he. When yeosang realized exactly what he said he couldn't even process why..why was he that dumb to say that? and to even start a fight with San to end up like this? He knew he was in the wrong too but he wasn't exactly sure why it turned out to be like this; all he simply wanted was to express how he felt when San wasn't exactly there to protect him, but maybe if he shut up nothing like this would've of happen. He kept repeating how dumb he was to even express how he felt and to even be angry at San for being somewhat right too even if he was in the wrong. He tried to think of a quick apology, but the silence only lasted for a few seconds, he opened his mouth to apologize but San already decided to speak.

"Get out, yeo." 

"W-wait- I didn't mean to say that! I'm sorry sannie, I really am. I-I wasn't thinking I never meant to hurt you or start a fight. I was just trying to express how I feel I'm really really sorry." Yeosang managed to get out, holding back tears. He knew he fucked up; but he hoped there was something he could do, but he knew he hurt San really bad because of that. He barely even knew his father, he doesn't know exactly what has happened in his life; only the photo and book could say that much. What was wrong with yeosang for him to say that? 

He wanted San to forgive him but San, only he could say was to tell yeosang to get out and they would talk about this later. (Later as in when they calmed down and are on the right mindset to realize they're both wrong and right.)

But yeosang wouldn't move towards the door instead he only stood up, going after San's hand again to hold it; holding back tears as he did so. "Look Sannie I'm really sor--" But with San's reaction, it scared the other. "Can you just get the fuck out?! Do you not listen?! Don't even touch me!" San yelled at the other, smacking his hand away. The actions of that caused Yeosang to flinch and back away from San; tears already escaping his eyes, he was in shock. He rubbed his hand San smacked; and San wasn't even phased slightly to what he did, He was angry; extremely angry. "Get out already!" And with that yeosang managed to let out another apology choking on his sob but San kept yelling at him. 

"And while you're at it why don't you turn me in too?"

"Sannie I-I can explain! at first I was going to but-" San wouldn't listen he kept yelling until Yeosang stormed out of the room, slamming the door shut behind him he was out just like. He couldn't even feel anything at this point, if he just listened maybe he wouldn't have hurt himself like that.

You're a dumbass yeosang, if you just listened the first time he wouldn't of lashed out on you and you wouldn't be crying like a bitch in the hospital!

Yeosang avoided any eye contact with anyone, wiping his tears; trying not to seem hurt or as if he was crying not so long ago. But it was slightly hard, he saw the nurse from earlier coming towards him slowly but avoided her; trying to show he wasn't in the mood and with the body language she headed to San's room instead. Yeosang wasn't completely there, he wanted to escape and leave the hospital and to never interact with the group; but that would be too much. He hurt the one he loved with the stupid words he didn't even think about, he didn't even want to talk about to the group along he couldn't trust them now he couldn't even trust himself.

But yeosang decided it was best if he was all gone; but when he tried to leave the nearest exit he went out leaning back on the outside wall staring into a dark alleyways places that had a few lights on or none. Maybe being outside and taking deep breaths and coming back would solve his problems; he realized it would be stupid to just exit so he went to reach his phone that was suppose to be in his pocket but when he did...it wasn't there. He panicked for a bit, he wanted the others to know that he was okay and would come back shortly; but when he went to go back to the door to enter he flinched feeling up on the side of his head and someone holding him hostage almost like..

Seriously? This shit again, come on

Yeosang thought maybe it was a prank one of them were pulling but when he heard the voice; It sounded serious and that's when fear overtook him. It was Yeonjun, but how did he know where the hell they were? Yeosang had hatred for himself on not realizing on what shit he got himself into. Yeosang kicked and tried screaming but he was being dragged and Yeonjun had a nice grip on the other, keeping the gun against his head; taking him into the car. 

"I will kill you and it's perfect since they'll never know where you are."

(Idk how to describe this POV (?) but it's San so enjoy.)

In the hospital room

San bit his lip watching his own lover run out of the room, hurt by his own actions and words. San only felt two things; yeosang should've of listened and left the first time so they could have a while and everything would be solved in a nice way when they're okay and can be understanding but the other feeling was small something he never felt before at all; he felt sorry and was even mad at himself. How could he just treat yeosang like that instead of being calm and understanding? Maybe he should've of accepted the first apology yeosang said but San was hurt really badly; it was like the words hurt more than him literally being shot. In the hopes he had for yeosang to come so they both can apologize he heard footsteps getting closer; the doorknob turned but it wasn't yeosang sadly, it was the nurse.

If the hospital wasn't so strict he would've of got up on his own two feet and chased yeosang down; the nurse shared a comforting ask San some things about his injury and held her clipboard waiting down the answers. The nurse felt like something was off for a bit but never asked anything personal until she found a phone; she picked it up and showed San. "Excuse me sir, is this yours or did someone leave it?" San was like yeosang now, lost in thoughts. He qickly brought his gaze to the nurse holding the phone showing him, realization hitting him like a truck when he saw it was yeosang's phone. But the two were startled; when San's friend opened the door shutting it gently behind them, staring at the two. "Where's yeosang? where the fuck is my friend San?" San was confused, the nurse slowly stepping aside letting the four talk while she held the phone still. 

"I thought he was with you guys, he left after we had a small misunderstanding." San explained.

The three shared a look between themselves before looking at San. "We tried contacting him but..." And then Hongjoong's eyes met the phone the nurse was holding she smiled awkwardly; and that's when the worse thing possible San could think of happened. "You guys don't think he would've of just left?" San's gaze slowly went to the nurse; she laughed awkwardly handing the phone to San but kept the clipboard close; since there were unanswered questions. San was in denial, how could yeosang just leave without telling anyone where he was going? Yeah he left his phone in the room, but what about going up to them and telling them where he'll be or just going back in the waiting room and just stay there until he could come out? San's phone went off in the silence; he didn't want to check it but he did, his eyes darkening as many emotions ran over him when he checked the messages; the three could sense something was wrong.

Unknown sender
We have your lover. Come get it before it's too late, you wouldn't want him to be dead would you?

Even if the sender was unknown he knew who it was and that pissed him off.