One Way Or Another | Sansang

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"Welp we have our San back." Hongjoong laughed softly, as the others joined laughing along; yeosang's tears stopped pouring as he felt his world coming together again. His heart really very warm and fuzzy for some reason, he was happy to have San back and to be with the group. To think of it..the boy didn't know what he would do without San since San played a huge role in his life; he wouldn't want to even be out in the open if he lost him. Yeosang sat down in a seat that was pulled up to the hospital bed; smiling softly at the caressing on his hand San was doing with his thumb. "We're so glad to have you back bro, we really are." "Mhm! If we lost you we wouldn't know what to do without you.." Seonghwa was comforting Hongjoong rubbing his back, meanwhile Wooyoung being dramatic had two tissue box beside him. "UGH! Next time be careful, seeing that was so horrible but I'm very glad you're alive but I'm going to scold your ass." San just rolled his eyes, smiling small at his friends before all their attention turned to yeosang was had mixed emotions; it's not that he didn't know what to say but he didn't know exactly how to express how he was right now.

"You better promise me you won't do something like that ever again! I was afraid for my life Sannie but I'm so happy you're alive and well, I wouldn't even want to live if you left us."

San wasn't the type to be very soft or to cry; but San was feeling something he never did, he knew his friends cared about him but the way Yeosang did was so different. San shot yeosang a small smile before fixing his posture slowly to cup the other's face gently; causing the two to look at each other before they shared a small kiss that was filled with love. The two finally connecting again and sharing a kiss which yeosang thought would be the last but he was happy it wasn't. Seonghwa and Hongjoong were in awe letting the couple having their moment; but Wooyoung always had something to say.

"Get a room." Wooyoung coughed, trying to hide what he said; but failed as usual.

The others looked at him, yeosang feeling embarrassed just looked down; biting his lip.

"Can you not open that big mouth of yours?" 

Hongjoong, Seonghwa and San said at the same time; causing them all to be silent before bursting out in laughter as Wooyoung's reaction was dramatic as always.

To yeosang, he didn't want anything to change or happen to any of them or their small group they shared; although he wasn't sure what to do or to trust any of them, he never knew what to do without them. He had a bunch of different thoughts for each one of them but never spoke about it and kept them to himself, hoping maybe one day when he opens up about it. They'll understand...

Time skip
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The room was filled with laughter and talking; a bunch of dad jokes being cracked mixed with a bit of serious talking then added with some emotional moments. They reached a point where they stopped talking about their own things and some things that yeosang was just clueless on yet listened anyways. "We should let the couple have their time now, shall we?" Seonghwa suggested, the two nodding in agreement as he glanced at yeosang. The sudden look at him almost startled yeosang since seonghwa's eyes always went big and doe to sharp and edgy like San's when he looked at the other. "I'd love that a lot." Seonghwa headed out of the room; followed by Wooyoung and Hongjoong as they said some things like "See you soon" or some things similar. 

As soon as the door was shut; San and yeosang were by themselves, it fell silent and the beeping of the machine drove yeosang's straight to..you guessed it; his thoughts. The flashback of how he could hear what was said, the way he remembered Yeonjun's hand reaching to his pocket pulling out the gun; and the way San's body just fell to the ground. The sirens and him trying to get out of the car followed by his own screams, when he saw blood rushing out his lover's body endlessly. Shocked and surprise about how he survived due to the blood loss, but then again he was happy San was here. But he hated how the scene in the bathroom and his actions led to this; if he didn't actually took San's words and let whatever take his body to do that act on the men. 

None of this would have happen and San wouldn't be in a hospital bed, covered with bandages and connected to machines; yet, he hated how San wasn't exactly there for him. Half of his thoughts were against San, he should've of saved him, right? He could've of walked into the bathroom, shoot the guys and walk out with yeosang as nothing happened. But no, he didn't and yeosang was filled with not only guilty but betrayal on how that he needed San and he was never there for him. He was taken back he just had many questions to ask San; not caring if it hurt him.

"You were suppose to be there for me, you weren't. You told me you wouldn't leave my side and you did San. Don't you know how bad I was struggling in there?!"

"So are you putting this on me? as soon as they leave you go ahead and do this? I should've of known..if you just stayed put then maybe none of this would've of happened."

Yeosang felt a sting in his heart; he wasn't exactly trying to put this on San. He was just trying to point out how hurt and afraid he was for the both of them. The fact San however already said something that made yeosang hurt more, it was like the damage was starting to happen all over again when yeosang spoke up and said San was the killer.

"Oh don't try that on me! You said you knew everything! You said you would always be there for me but you weren't, if you knew every fucking thing I was doing you would be there right?!" 

"It's not my fault, you were the one who didn't listen to me. I was doing something important and--"

"And it couldn't wait huh?! Were you busy killing other people?!"

"YEOSANG! I got a warning and feeling something wasn't right and nothing was, I was trying to come back as soon as possibly, But I know how you are and I had to warn Dami that's when you came along all in blood with a blade."

"What did you expect me to do?! You told me to use the blade for protection and I did, don't try to put this on me please..I was trying to do what you said!"

"Oh so you can listen to one thing but not the other?"

Yeosang froze; getting hit with guilt; getting filled with anger but also sadness, he was on the verge of crying but he couldn't at this moment. A flashback from the past on how he cried once while fighting and how he got bullied for it came back. He couldn't believe San, the way he thought he would just apologize and be graceful he finally gained courage and did something for self defense but he never did... That's when he remembered the things between Yeonjun and San, and without any thinking he said what was just on his mind. 

"You know what, I heard everything between you and Yeonjun and you wanna know something?! He's right! You're just like your father!"