One Way Or Another | Sansang

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"Are you stupid San?!" Hongjoong yelled at him but all San did in response was smile as he lifted his head up looking at hongjoong; letting out an chuckle. "Stupid? I'm pretty sure I did the right thing." Seonghwa sighed at the two usually it would be him and San but now things have changed, which was something he was very unaware of. "Don't you know he probably already told a bunch of people especially cops by now and has people guarding over him like an animal?! and you took things way too far! No matter how close you get he gets far away and away..you were close to getting him but you've reached a point to burying your what you call him? Oh, your one and only alive!" Hongjoong yelled at the top of his lungs, slamming down papers. "We are wanted so badly here and we have only three days to catch him San, and we're not going too. Everything you've done isn't working you're just...." Hongjoong stopped mid sentence as his eyes met San's. "I'm what?" San spoke with no emotion; his eyes piercing into hongjoong's. 

"You're such a psychopathic bitch, all because your parents didn't love you, you can't force someone to do it when they find out the truth about you. He's running far from us because of that."

San kept quiet, words do hurt but that couldn't make him cry...crying? what's that? All he know is anger and only anger, but did they know San could feel what yeosang felt or was he just as crazy as everyone said he was? But he held back anger and just shrugged, speaking as he did so. "Or maybe he's just too afraid to get close to me because he know he can't resist me."

Hongjoong's temper grew more. He was tired of San's behavior; yes he might of helped him without all the dirty little secrets he has done but he couldn't take it no more. He felt used for all the stupid reasons he wanted to end all of this,, he wanted the poor boy to be set free and stop getting traumatized as if he wasn't traumatized enough. If he could he would give San the hardest biggest slap ever but he couldn't..he knew if he did and went onto yeosang's side and rat all three of them out..
He, himself and seonghwa could possibly end up dead.

But he remained silent for a few, shaking his head as he controlled himself before yelling at someone who was just as bad as their own family history; he maybe shouldn't of said that but it was the truth just because San's childhood wasn't good enough he can't act the way he is because of it. He needs help, serious help but he's so obsessed with yeosang; he needs yeosang; he wants yeosang..he can't live without him at all.

"Okay San, believe what you want but if he goes missing and he's with us, then it's game over and you'll never ever see him." Hongjoong mumbled, fixing the stacks of papers and closing the cap to his pen and he decided to head to his room to calm down. Seonghwa sighed and got up to follow his one and only; San was left alone on the couch letting his thoughts overtake him.

Maybe Hongjoong is right, he is taking this too far isn't he?
Maybe he needs to give it up and let someone else have yeosang?
But if San wants something, he will get it. He will demand it.

He just popped open another bottle as he watched the clock tick; it was midnight. He chugged the bottle before popping his pills and taking them to relax himself, without yeosang is was like he was going more insane, even if yeosang kept running San knew he would find him. San has haunt down a lot of people and it didn't take long but yeosang was different so smart and quiet; that's what made him like yeosang a bit too much than he planned. 

But not only that he was perfect, like an gift sent above. He missed him so much that there was never a day that went by where he didn't think of him at all. But he was done at this point of people telling him that he and yeosang will never meet or be together forever but San wanted that; that's all he could think about. Even if the law gets in the way, he will make sure they never take him alive and will get away no matter what. 

Yeosang can't be away from San for that long, it's like he knows how much he misses him. He can feel a huge connection with yeosang; San knew yeosang could never ever get rid of him not at all even if he tried too. He wouldn't stop until the boy finally realizes he can not live without him. 

San had enough of the attitude he's been getting from the two and decided to take things into his own hands, he decided to wrap it up and go out without any disguise and find his one and only no matter what he needed him and was able to do anything. He would do it all, he does things from him already at this point. But now he's reconsidering does he want yeosang dead or not? He sighed, getting up tossing the bottle into the trash before injecting a drug into his veins, now they were bulging along with his strong arms. He slid his phone into his pocket; along with his cigarette and lighter. He headed out the door shutting it behind him; he knew seonghwa and hongjoong wouldn't care or would they? He knew the two would be worn out and sleeping together like two peas in a pod at this time. 
Hongjoong might be right about him being crazy and literally almost killing yeosang but it was either he burned all the evidence and such or end yeosang himself face to face. But San didn't see himself as crazy, he saw himself as creative. 

He headed to his motorcycle; getting on it as he started, the moonlight shined down onto him as he muttered to himself.

"I will find you, sangie. And I will make sure you never ever leave again..hopefully you'll see how much you fucking mean to me."