One Way Or Another | Sansang

- Play pretend -

Yeosang rested his head on the car window, the city lights blinded him as he watched the sun set lower; it wasn't even through one day he had lost his best friend. His own friend who he loved so much and he regretted a lot, though he was at fault for letting the two meet; he didn't intend the two to have huge problems maybe wooyoung thought the two would get along and just be friends with nothing else. Although that wasn't the case, the two becoming a pair was easy to see happening but not so far. He started drifting into his thoughts as he started getting sleepy, Dami's calm driving with R&B music made him drift off faster and think about calming things. Everything seemed to go by so fast. Like suddenly he lied about going out, was about to run away and start his life all over again but then it took a twisted turn...his best friend got shot, he had nowhere to go until Dami showed up. It was like an angel set her down for him. 
He trusted her more than he could trust San, his lover.. well ex, well okay lover because they haven't exactly broken up but to yeosang, they did but in his heart he knew they never did.

But when it came to San, yeosang was his; only his and forever will be his.

His thoughts fell deeper and deeper; they were darkening as his breathing was hitching in his sleep but he didn't know, now it was time to play pretend and act like he was okay but this was going to be hard. He would rather be kept in the darkness and not be seen in public it was hard for him now, imagine how it would be like in the future. Without wooyoung how would he be able to interact and connect with the world? Going out with him was the only thing that helped him, sooner or later he will fall into a deep hole more deeper than now and have to take several classes just to get better. He didn't know it could be like this, his life was slipping through his cold fingertips; and there was nothing he could do, what was the point of grabbing at it right?
He was lost, very lost.

Knowing now that not only did he lose wooyoung after losing all his family but he now has to stay with someone who he barely knows yet trusts with almost everything he has as long as he can get away from San, oh how he started thinking about him now...which was not a good idea while sleeping. His love for San went down the drain after what happened, he felt like San was the problem for everything, left and right. No matter how many fights the two had they always come back running to each other which he didn't know how to resist but it was what it was, right? San just had something in him and San was like a imagine repeating over and over in his head, no matter what he though of San always popped up. He hated him so much, he despised him. After everything he put yeosang through the boy still adored and cherished him which he really shouldn't overall the feelings for San kept getting mixed up as if he had to remake a patch of pancakes, it was nonstop stirring. Flames grew inside him as he thought of San, the smell of smoke went under his nose causing him to question everything suddenly..gunshots were heard as sirens were too, his heart begin racing and....

BUMPY BUMP-

He woke up instantly; causing himself to gasp as his head hit the window when Dami drove over a bump, he rubbed his head mumbling a cuss word. "fuck." Dami looked over for a couple of seconds before focusing on driving. "Are you okay yeosang?"

NO, No I'm not okay!

"Yeah, I'm fine just hit my head." Yeosang lied, laughing it off.

"I'm sorry, I tried going slow as possible." She apologized with a small smile on her face. "Whenever we get to my place, I'll let you sleep in..you seem completely knockout." Yeosang could just nod as dami was right. He was extremely tired, tired of living too if you thought about it. But just for the sake of his parents and wooyoung, maybe Dami too...he decided to keep fighting, he did not want the three to get away with killing his one and only best friend but also the ruining of his life since all he can think of is horrible thoughts and thinking of someone who isn't as good as he thought he would be. He sighed, laying his head back on the headrest of the car. "Hey Dami?" "Yeah?" "I wanna thank you again...life lately has been so shitty, I don't even know how much longer I can take or handle." Yeosang laughed out but for Dami, this was serious to her. "Don't worry, I got you and we got this. I'll make sure to protect you that's a promise I'm willing to keep and I was even told by...wooyoung to keep an eye on you when we all three were suppose to meet. Do you really think I'll let San get at you again?" She looked at yeosang but he was already dead asleep, snoring softly as he snuggled up with himself; acting like he was having a slight nightmare...maybe he was actually and not acting.

"Poor boy..."