Forbidden Love

chapter 30

!TW: mentions of self harm, death and Angs! If you're very sensitive please dont read this!

We got ready for the celebration and headed over to marbel room where everyone was already seated, the first thing we saw as we walked in was Fatma smiling and laughing with pregnant slave, I looked at her disgusted before we walked over to them, I quickly put my best fake smile on  "Congratulations on your baby " I told the slave and she looked very happy, I sat down on one of the pillows "where are Hurichan and Nurbanu?" I asked curiously "they should come any minute" Fatma said and I nodded "wah I can't believe I'm sitting next to Royale family! This is so fun! I can't wait to become queen one day" the slave saud and I looked at her very disturbed "what's your name again?" I asked her "it's Tasha" she said and I tried to smile at her "keep dreaming then Tasha and know your limits before I teach you some respect " I told her and she looked schoked, she quickly looked up at Fatma and Fatma did seem to hear anything. Suddenly I heart footsteps coming towards the chamber, very sloppy and slow footsteps, I looked at the entrance of the room and wait for whoever will come inside, after few moments Hurichan walked inside the chamber, her head was bleeding and her hair was a mess, she bearly kept her eyes open, I quickly stood up in Shock "Hurichan!?" I yelled and everyone looked to see what was happening, and everyone looked schocked, I ran to her "Hurichan what happened!?" I asked in panic and she mumbled something before fainting, luckily I catched her just before she hit the ground "NURSE" I screamed while blood ran down my hands and in my lap, I sat down on the floor and Fatma came and held her daughters hand while crying, everyone gathered around us worried, the nurse finally came and took her to nurses chamber. Me, my mother and Fatma followed them, I sat by the bed and held her hand, my mother stood by me and Fatma stood on the other side of the bed while nurse was doing her job "will she be ok? Is the injury bad?" I asked worried "she should be fine , the cut is really deep but I'll do my best "the nurse said and I nodded "my angel...who did this to you " Fatma said whole crying, Suddenly somone bursted trought the door, it was Bayazit "Where is she!? Is she ok!?" He yelled scared and cried when she saw her, he moved me away and held her hand "Hurichan.." he whispered and cried while holding her hand, my mom looked at him schocked "Bayazit how can you push your sister away like that!?" She said angry and I held her hand "mother it's find" I whispered and pulled her to the side "he's emotional now, let him be.." I said softly and she nodded. After few more minutes nurse covered Hurichans wound"I think it will be best if you leave her to rest for a bit " the nurse said and we all nodded and made our way out, everyone except for Bayazit, I walked over to him and placed my hand on his shoulder "Bayazit...come on let's go, she needs to rest " I said softly and he slapped my hand away "I told you to stay out of my way" he said not even looking at me "Bayazit.." he then got up angry "I know you did it Hieren! Admit it " he was so angry "Am I really the first person you suspect!? I would never hurt her! She's my cousin! I'm not evil Bayazit! I love her!" I said "stop lying " he said trough gritten teeth and started walking towards me, I could see anger in his eyes "B-Bayazit you're scaring me " I said scared but he continued walking towards me and I continued walking back until my back his the wall "If she dies Hieren...you will die right after her I promise you that" he said "I will tear up every piece of your body until there's nothing left of you " I wide opened my eyes and gulped "Bayazit I'm your sister! Where is this coming from!? I didn't do anything to her! How dare you suspect me of something so crule like that!" I yelled offended and hurt while crying, I then feel sharp pain on my cheek, I feel on the floor with my hand on my cheek, he slapped me...I couldn't believe it, I was so schocked that I couldn't even breath "this is just a warning, be prepared " he said before walking over to Hurichan again. I walked out of the chamber, luckily no one was there, I made my way to my own chamber when suddenly I was met with Selim and Nurbanu, they are probably walking to Nurse chamber, "Hieren" Selim said happily and I quickly fixed my hair and wiped my tears "Selim" I smiled weakly at him And Nurbanu, "if you're here to see Hurichan don't....Bayazit is in there he's.... upset " I sighed, I saw Nurbanu roll her eyes, usually I would scold her but I didn't had strength to do so " you can go if you want but at your own risk " My voice cracked "Hieren, what happened" Selim asked, his smile changed to angry face "Nothing Selim" I said while smiling weakly, I didn't wanted him and Bayazit to fight again, "you're lying" he continued " just leave it " I interrupted him and walked to my chamber, I didn't wanted to cry in front of them , and more importantly I didn't want them to find out about Bayazit threatening me. I walked in my chamber and locked the door behind me, the I let it all out, I started crying hard and painful, I can't believe my own brother threatened to kill me...dies be really think I'm evil...that I need to be gone forever....I cried more at thoughts of it, I walked over to my bed and layed down on it, I screamed in my pillow and cried more, I could feel my hands starting to shake, I hated myself at this moment, I wanted to die, I hated that Bayazit wants to kill me, because of something I didn't even do, I couldn't think straight, I ripped the dress off of my body and was left in mini under dress, I looked at myself in the mirror that was next to my bed, I looked at my messed up expression "You are disgusting" I said to myself while crying "you are witch! You don't deserve to be here...you're useless..." I cried more as I took razor that was laying on top of nightstand (because of shaving )  "your own brother hates you" I whispered to myself before starting to leaving cuts on my arms with razor, I cried more, my tears dropped on my open cuz it's and it burned like crazy, I made some on other arm to, I couldn't stop crying....I dropped the razor and looked at my arms...they were full if blood, blood was dripping all over my bed...there was blood everywhere. I suddenly started feeling really dizzy "mom.." I whispered while still crying "mom where are you" I whispered again while sniffing and crying, I then collapsed on bed and everything went black.