Reincarnated As The Disgrace Marchioness Villainess

CHAPTER NINETEEN: THE MARCHIONESS PAIN

W/N: Back to Lyrical na naging si lyryvy POV na tayo guys~ sinasabi ko lang baka mapagkamalan niyo na si original Lyryvy parin toh. That's all mwaps~

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Lyryvy POV.

"When will the Marchioness wake up? The young masters are already worried about the marchioness." I heard someone said but I did not dare open my eyes to see who it was.

I don't know how many days I am unconscious, I just woken up yesterday but I still decided to pretend that I still don't have conscious because I'm afraid that I'll broke down.

I just need some space for myself, a little time to process on what I've dream, or rather, remembered.

Yes I do have the Marchioness memories and all, but not all of them were clear. Some of them were blurry, as if it is not yet the right time for me to know what happen to the Marchioness before.

And that certain memory that I've remembered, while I'm unconscious, is one of those blurry memory.

And I couldn't help but to be shock to know that the Marchioness was already Rude and a brat since before.

Well I do expect that though, but still, I'm shock.

And also the fact that Emperor devin's parents is most probably behide the Marchioness Parents death.

And also to add that, maybe the Marchioness knows about that. but she was just so blind in that so called love of hers that she just disregard that fact.

I don't why, the Marchioness is smart, but dumb in trusting people and knowing what love is.

It's clear for a fact that her so called love was an obsession, it was not love at all.

And the fact that she can disregard her parents for Devin is Very much Dumb.

She took her parents for granted, yes she weep for their Death and also blame herself. But am I mean to say that I agree to her? It's clearly her fault.

At a very young age she was already obsses with the wrong person that cause her downfall.

She choose the person that can possibly leave her, instead of her parents that won't leave her in any kind of situation.

She choose that person, that only shows her fake love, instead of her parents that loves and care for her unconditionally, and genuinely.

She choose that person because of love that she thought felt for that man.

She choose him because of false feelings.

I don't know bakit diko na pansin na obsession pala ang meron ang Marchioness habang nag babasa ng Libro nong nasa previous life pa ako.

I only notice it know that I'm living as the Marchioness and gaining her memories.

I sigh and open my eyes when I felt that I'm alone in my room.

I look around and my room is still the same, I look at the window and saw that it was already getting dark.

I did not move an inch in my bed, I was just laying there looking at the window while the memory that I've just remembered replayed inside my head.

My heart constricted as I've remember there happy faces, there laughs, there hugs, and there kisses.

I can't help but to feel pain about it, and I don't know why I'm feeling this pain even though I'm just a soul that got transmigrated into this world, into this Marchioness body.

I shouldn't be affected, there not my parents. I'm not the Marchioness.

But why am I feeling pain? Why does it feel like I'm there daughter and I've committed to them a grave sin.

Why does it feel like the marchioness and me are just one? Why? Why? Why? Why?!

I'm so tired of this, always breaking down for pointless reasons.

I hate being this weak, I hate crying for unknown reasons. I hate being clueless about everything, and I hate being confuse. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!

Can I just take a brake just for once? Please I've had enough, I've had enough Pain. Please let me just be happy.

I can't take it anymore, I can't.....

Napahagulgol na ako ng tuluyon habang nakahiga parin at naka tingin sa bintana.

I can't take this pain, I can't take this. I need air, I need fresh air.

I couldn't breath, help, someone help.

I immediately got up from bed when I felt like suffocating, I need air.

I immediately walk to my door and opening it startling a maid that was about to enter my room.

I did not put much attention to that maid as I've run out going straight to were my garden is.

I kept running, bumping some maids and butlers in the process who was shock to see me conscious and running.

I kept running and I pass by Butler Kerdel who was carrying a tray full of cookies and milk.

When he saw me pass by he called for me but I did not gave him my attention as the door to my garden came to view.

I frantically hold the handle of the door and open it Roughly as I've run outside Inhaling Air as I calm my nerves.

I breath in and out as I close my eyes when I felt my heart beat slowly Slow down, and my cries died down.

I sigh and open my eyes as I wipe my shed tears in my face as I walk Trough the garden.

I was finding a perfect spot to sit when I saw a Man Sleeping below a tree.

Kumunot ang noo ko dahil sa estranghero nitong mukha, meaning ay diko pa sya nakita sa buong pagmamalagi ko rito.

As far as I know I've memorize each and everyone's names and faces of the people of Zival Household.

And if I clearly Remember that kind of face of his is not one of them.

Kumunot na talaga ang noo ko at naisipan na lapitan ito.

I know its a dumb idea pero hindi ko malalaman sino sya Kung hindi ko toh lalapitan.

Maybe he's lost or something, maybe he needs help. I don't know.

I slowly walk towards the man and as if feeling my presence the man open his eyes and I was surprise to see different colored eyes.

One is Silver and One Is a deep forest green.

I was surprise but I still couldn't help but to be amazed at the different color of his eyes.

Because of his eyes I've clearly Forgotten how that he is stranger and the reason why Im outside right now.

"how beautiful" I mumbled to myself.

Because of how busy I was being mesmerised by the Stranger's eyes ay hindi ko na pansin na ito ay naka tayo na  at naka kunot noong naka tingin sakin.

"there you are again, looking at me so creepily. Ugly woman..." he said which bring me back to my reverie as my eyes widen and check him out up and down.

My eyes widen even more when i realize that the man in front of me Is the same man that I've gawk at the diner and the one who have rescued me and ivy from the black knights.

But the question is, Why is his Eyes a Different Color now?!

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Chapter Nineteen Completed

W/N: sooooo, uhm. I honestly don't know whats happening. I don't really know how will this story Go honestly. 😆 But happy reading anyways. 😆

- Unique