Chapter 35
Wednesday, 1:12 pm
In the bunker
Katie's POV
I'm sitting in the library, doing my school work. Well...trying to. I can't focus very well, with all the thoughts I'm having. They're all negative, and I don't know what to do about them. I'm just trying to do my school work. This is the last subject that I have to do, today, and then I'll be done for the day. But I can't get anything done, when all I can think about is hurting myself. I don't even know why I'm thinking about that. Nothing happened for me to wanna do anything bad to myself. I don't know why this is happening, but I wish it would stop.
Dad: Hey. He snaps his fingers in my face You with me?
No. I'm in a place that I don't wanna be. Not physically. Mentally. I'm mentally in a bad place, and I don't wanna be here. I don't like it here. I wanna be somewhere happy. Not somewhere that tries to convince me to hurt myself. I wanna be somewhere that I like. Why can't I mentally and physically be in the same place? I'm physically in the bunker, where I like to be. But I'm not mentally in the bunker. I'm mentally somewhere dark and scary, and I'm nervous. Or anxious. I can never tell the difference. I don't think this is nervous. This isn't what being nervous feels like. This is what being anxious feels like.
Dad: Katie.
Now he's squatted down in front of me, and he looks concerned. I don't know how long I was lost in my thoughts for, but it was obviously long enough to worry Dad. I didn't wanna worry Dad. That's the last thing I wanted to do. But here we are.
Katie: Hi, Daddy.
Dad: Hi, Baby. You wanna tell me where you went?
Katie: Where I went?
Dad: Yeah. In your head. Where'd you go, Baby?
His voice is soft, like the way it is when he's trying to calm me down. I think he knows where I went, but he wants me to tell him. But I can't. I don't even know where I went. I can't tell him where I went, if I don't even know. I just know that I don't like going there. It's my least favorite place to be. I'd actually rather be anywhere else. Because literally anywhere else is happier than that place. The place in my head.
Katie: I don't know.
Dad: You don't know? You've been there a while. Do you wanna tell me about it?
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FanfictionKatie Winchester is the daughter of Sam Winchester. She's got an attitude problem and she never does what she's told. What happens when Sam gets fed up with his daughter's behavior? I do not own Supernatural or any of it's characters. I only own th...
