MR. CHRIST

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"I think I like him," I answer Aura's question after beating around the bush for around 30 minutes, "ughh! Actually I don't know... I don't want a relationship with him at the moment if that's what you're asking. BUT I do like him, a lot."

Kissing Seth... well. I wanted more.

Making out with Seth validated my freedom to do whatever I want to do. No one can tell me how to feel about things, and most importantly I didn't regret it. We were so close to having sex even after he told me I couldn't take him, but I had to leave to get Star from Aura and Lucifer's home.

"I called it," Aura pushes my shoulder with her hand happier than I am, "it was so obvious you two have feelings for one another... reminds me of the start of me and Lucifer's relationship."

Aura told me how Lucifer and her met, and it's nothing like me and Seth.

She's grown to be my best friend which is a big accomplishment because before Seth I never had friends. I wasn't allowed to have any, and no one wanted to be my friend because of Dominic's reputation.

Star has been having the best time with her new bestie too, she sometimes stays over Aura's house for sleepovers with Ava. It took a lot in me to trust her to stay over anyone's house, it still does.

She hasn't asked about her dad yet and that worries me. I'm not sure if I should bring him up or wait for her to ask... I still don't have a validate excuse to why we left.

'We're on vacation' was thrown out the window months ago.

"Confusing Star isn't what I want to do either, she's happy here, but I know deep down she misses her dad," I sigh pushing my hair out of my face, leaning back into the couch, "the only thing I'm sure of is making sure my daughter is happy."

Star loves Seth. In the beginning I didn't trust anyone with Star but Aura, it was hard for me to trust Seth 100%. When my dad was gone for business trips my mom would take that as an opportunity to bring multiple men in the house. I was confused why she did that up until I was around 11. Once I was 15 I noticed they would creep me out at the way they looked at me, my mom didn't care when I told her they were looking at me weird so I started staying over Dominic's house.

That's why no one was allowed to be with Star alone without my knowledge. It's been a rollercoaster getting to the point where I trust my daughter to go places with Seth or even Aura and Lucifer. She loves all three of them.

They're good people and they love Star too.

"I don't think Star would be confused I heard her talking to Ava about some things," Aura looks down and I squint my eyes in confusion, "what," I ask with a awkward laugh.

She looks back at me and releases a deep breath,"I'm not sure what possessed her to say this or she's seen her father do the things you never wanted her to see, but um... she said she hates her daddy because of how mean he is to you. The one thing I do know she's seen is him screaming in your face and slamming door- she did tell Ava that."

I asked Star one night while putting her to bed how she felt about her dad. She told me she loved him and couldn't wait to go home to kiss him. I haven't spoken negatively about Dominic when she was around, but maybe she heard something. I don't remember him doing that while she was home; sometimes I open up to Seth about the things Dominic did to me. I'm praying she heard me say that and not seen her dad do that. Both are bad, but one weights more than the other.