MR. CHRIST

♱ 25 • i rather be dead

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Storm
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I'm so sore.

Everytime I have sex with Seth he makes it feel like the first time. He fucked me so good I felt like I was watching it from outside of my body.

He went straight to sleep after a shower.

Looking over at him sleeping I respond to the question Star just asked me over the phone, "daddy is sleep," walking out of the room I continue to speak into the phone, "I'm going downstairs and when I go back upstairs I will tell him you love him and said goodnight."

I go into the kitchen, "goodnight mommy, love you," she says over the phone before giving me a phone kiss.

I love it when she does that.

"I love you too pumpkin ," after ending the phone call I hear rumbling. I assume it's thunder.

"You could've told her, dada said goodnight," quickly turning around I drop my phone and my heart drops to my ass.

Dominic.

"Or is the man upstairs her new dad," he presses something against my stomach and right when I'm about to scream he says, "make one noise and I'll pull the trigger."

My eyes become heavy as his scent brings back old memories- bad ones, "if you want to see her you can Dominic, we don't-"

He stops me.

I squirm in my position, "when I find Star she's coming home reguardless," he brings the cold melt up to my head, "are you?"

Shaking my head my eyes travel to the scar on his neck, I can't look him in his eyes, "no," I answer.

I rather be dead.

That scar brings back a memory I don't want to relive.

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ALMOST 2 YEARs AGO
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They always say 'it won't happen again' or they're sorry...

It will happen again, and again, and again, and again. It never stops, the yelling, the punches, the slaps, the degradation- never stops!

Dominic hasn't hit me in years, I believed him when he promised it wouldn't happen again... until it happened. Yesterday he beat for not making him the dinner he wanted when he specifically told me Star was in charge of what we're eating because it's her birthday week.

I guess he expected her to pick stake.

After Star went to bed he went to working on me. We just got back from a restaurant and it's so embarrassing having to become an expert on covering up bruises. Taking off the makeup is the most painful part.

Nothing really covers it up and I know my makeup melted off just by Dominic getting pissed at our waitress for staring at me, "eye... k?" Star asks bring her finger up to my purple eye.

Gently grabbing the finger I kiss it before leaning down and kissing her cheek, "mommy is okay," I smile at her knowing I have, no I need, to get my daughter far away from this hell.