I had no reason being bitchy towards the only person willing to risk their life for both me and my daughter.
I never pictured Dominic not being a present father in Star's life, I never wanted her to call another man dad regardless of how I feel about Dominic's sick ways. The things I wanted for my child aren't going as I planned and it makes me defensive, the only thing I could control is to not make my daughter like me, and I feel like everyday she's becoming more and more like me and I hate it.
I now understand Dominic doesn't want anything to do with Star unless it's through me, I just don't want to face that reality.
I have to because now me and Star both have something a million times better. I'm not going to take advantage of it.
Seth is giving me all of these ideas on how to solve it but it's hard because I don't know how it's going to go. Making a decision that impacts my daughter's life I want to know it's on thousand percent going to work.
But me wasting time is giving Dominic an upper hand.
And Seth has never told me anything wrong.
Opening the door to Star's room I'm surprised at how clean it is. She always takes toys from her play room and brings them in here, but there isn't a toy in sight, "hi pumpkin," I sit on her bed, "I love how clean your room is."
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"Seth cleaned it," she's on her iPad which I normally don't allow this late but sometimes she needs a break from reality too. She gets about 30 minutes of scene time, today I gave her an hour. Seth and her like playing Roblox together within those thirty minutes, but I guess he's working late, so I gave her an hour of free time. He hasn't messaged me or called so he might still be upset with me.
Her relationship with Seth has grown so much and truthfully if she's okay with Seth being a father figure in her life I'll allow Seth to take the wheel.
I wouldn't go back to Dominic and if he kills me I rather Seth have control over her life because I know she'd be protected and raised to respect others.
"Can I ask you something," I ask getting her full attention. She places her iPad down and nods her head, "could you be honest with me and tell me how you feel about Seth?"
I know she loves him. She tells Lucifer and Aura all the time how much she loves him, but I need to hear it one last time before I talk to Seth about what's best for her.
