Cartel Princess // Marcus Arguello

Chapter 31

Well...

Readjusting back to Kings was easier then I imagined. Maybe because the school was still half empty but whatever it was, was easy. I kept to myself mostly, I just didn't feel like talking to anyone, I worked mostly from my room. Juan went over everything he did for the cartel while I was gone...made me feel like a shit leader. He tried getting me to go out more, make new friends or something but I wasn't interested anymore, I wanted to finish school and go back home.

I even found myself not wanting to go to meetings in person. Phone calls were nothing for me but when I had to go meet someone...I got scared. Some sort of fear kinda washed over me, like it was a set up and I was going to be the next to go. Call it cowardly but for now, me and Juan both agreed I'd make phone deals and he'd go to in person meetings. I hung out with Petra a lot, at least when she wasn't with the rest of her friends, it was still hard to be around them.

It was especially hard to be around them when Marcus was with Maria-which was all the time. But not because I was jealous or anything, but because Maria didn't know Marcus had been paying me visits every night to make sure I was ok. Nothing ever happened...really, just the one time we almost kissed and I pulled away, but ever since then it's be a incurable tension that everyone could feel.

It wasn't long before he was sneaking off to hangout with me, I said I hated it but I can't lie it felt nice to feel like the shit that happened didn't happen. Plus, it was kind of helping me "heal" that closure thing Collins was always going on about. Did I fully forgive him for what he did to me? No, only because it was with Maria. And I didn't really blame him for Chicos death, from what I've heard from the group when I asked about it, Maria did it while my brother had his gun put away.

I don't know when it happened but I agreed to go to Brandy's stupid summer party. It was a pool party at some house on a hill. I didn't plan on staying for to long, Juan said parties had been helping the drug profit a-lot so I decided I go with him for a little then leave. A few days before the party Petra invited me to go hangout with her and the rest of the rats, I had been locked in my room for a while and decided fuck it and met with them.

When I got to roof where everyone was, the initial awkwardness was there, why wouldn't it be I've threatened to kill them all at least once. I tried to stay out of everyone's way, I didn't want to rock the boat so I mostly stayed against the wall looking out to the city night lights. I lit a joint then I was joined by Saya "hey..." she said standing next to me, I looked over and nodded "not really my business but...should you be" I laughed and nodded "prescribed" she nodded

"You've been real quiet lately. Kinda weird" she went on, I looked back up before looking back out to the city "I'm sure everyone is fine with it, I'm the puppy that followed her brother right? I just wined when I didn't get what I wanted" she looked up shocked "yea, I know what everyone says about me when I'm not around" I sighed taking another drag "I just want to finish and get out of this shit hole. I don't feel like having to deal with everyone anymore"

There was a silence before I turned around to watch Billy and Lex chase each other, she did the same. Eventually my eyes fell to Marcus and Maria, once again cuddled up on a lawn chair, I guess Marcus caught me staring and looked up, he gave me a small nod I took a deep breath and took another drag from the joint between my fingers "they're really happy together" Saya said making me chuckle a little "I'm sure they are" I replied "they're good for each other, I think they're meant to be or whatever" she paused "you should find someone like that Ona, you deserve it"

I laughed, putting out my joint "Since when are you so for them? Last I checked you wanted me to break them up so you had a chance" she looked taken back "why do you have to make it so hard to be nice to you? I try being some what if a friend and you just act like a total bitch" I scoff "because you never do it just to be nice, there's always some underlying reason for it." She shook her head "that's not true" I jerked my head back "really? The night you told me what they did, you were said it was because you felt i deserved to know but wait-didn't I figure out it's 'cause you have a thing for Maria?"