You Gave Me The Sun.Twice!!

CHAPTER 12

How could he speak to me like that, he even had the audacity to threaten me too with my children.
I had a talk with my sister while I broke down in the bathroom. I called her and she managed to calm me down. She told me to think rationally when I am talking to Damien, she also asked me if I still have feelings for him because you can't be this mad at someone when you don't feel anything for them. That got me thinking honestly, what am I feeling exactly for Damien. I know there are underlying issues between us and him showing up just brought everything up. He thinks everything is in the past but to me it isn't something I can just ignore that's not how I am.
I rely too much on Mia, I really hope she find her happiness too, some guy broke her heart a while back and she was not the same afterwards.
I think she is also using the twins as a distraction from what ever is happening in her love life.

I am on my way to work at the moment, i left Damien with the kids back at the house. I just couldnt even eat with him in the same room. I mean he practically kicked me out of my own home.
Where Damien is concerned i need to learn to pick my battles as my sister said.

Let him deal with them, he thinks its easy taking care of two toddlers all on you own.

One thing I realised is I feel so much resentment for Damien. Part of me acknowledges that he didnt know about the kids but a bigger but of me hates and resents him.
I went through the pregnancy alone, he could have been there with me, we didnt even need to get back together but he could have been there.
That's what makes me so mad, the sleepless nights I had thinking how I was going to support two children when I didnt even have experience as most jobs these days require you to have experience before they hire you.
I honestly got lucky, the first job I had was because my sister knew someone at the firm and I got hired. Now I know I got the job at "Anderson financial firm" purely by luck.

How do you forgive and forget something like this though. He abandoned me. What if he gets bored of the daredevils after a few months. Im the one who will be left to pick up the pieces just like I did 6 years ago.
Am I using the kids as revenge? That is something that comes to my mind a lot, what if I am using the kids to hurt him like he did me. Am I really trying to protect my kids or what exactly.
Jess you have to be strong, you cant let his dazzling smile and eyes get to you again.
Remember what happened the last time you allowed love in. You got burnt and now you have two little minions who depend on you fully.

When I arrive at work I check my emails, I find that one of the firms I applied to before have gotten back to me and I have to show up for an interview in a week.
I honestly hope I get the job, I do not want to work under Damien.
I do not want him controlling my life ever again.

I am still smiling from ear to ear when I get a call from an unknown number.
One thing I realised is when you are looking for a job, each and every call you get you answer since it could be a potential employer.
I should have really listened to my 6th sense and not answered the call.

"Is this Jessica Lincoln?"
"Who am i speaking to exactly?" I ask.

"Carmen Anderson, Damien's brother and legal advisor, we should set up a meeting soon to talk about the difficult situation you and my client find yourselves in." Wait what is going on?

"Excuse me?" I say because I am confused.

"I dont see how anything I said could be confusing, a meeting with all the relevant parties present must happen as soon as yesterday. We have to take care of this predicament fast,how much.."

I decide to end the call before I get more offended. This is so fucked up
Why did we have to meet, why did he have to buy this company.

I am pulled away from my thoughts by my phone ringing again
Urgg who could it be.
Its an unknown number again.

"Hello?"
"Hie,is this Jessica?"

"Who is asking?"
"Umm sorry i took so long to call you, its Zack."

"Umm, your name doesn't ring a bell honestly"
"Well we met outside the preschool, you gave me your card when i asked for some financial advice. So can we meet for coffee sometime or dinner. Honestly what ever you prefer"

"Well, i dont know if i have time honestly. After work i have to take care of my kids so unless its within working hours im afraid i cant really do any meet ups"

Why am i even turning down a date, i havent been out in a while. I vaguely remember him though. Damien is there, he can take care of the twins when he picks them up from preschool.

"On second thoughts, i will find a babysitter for my kids. How does this Friday sound?"

"It's a date, i will pick you up at around 6pm if that's okay with you,"

"It's okay, just send me the location and i will make sure to show up "
Better safe than sorry, the world is a sick place these days.
I dont want strangers knowing where i stay especially when I have 2 other individuals to consider.

Strangely im not excited about the whole date thing even though i havent been on a date in forever. The last time i tried going on a date ever since i had them my partime nanny called me as the kids were having a fever.
I dont know, it felt like a sign of sorts and i stopped even trying so its about time I get back on the horse.

Im 26 years old, im still young. I decide to give Damien a call to check if he managed to get the kids to preschool and ask him if he can babysit on Friday.
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"I won't have my kids call another man father!"
"I said i was going on a date, i didnt say i was getting married. So i dont know what your problem is"
"If you want to go out, we can leave the kids my brother and his wife then"
"No! I would never leave my children with someone who considers them a predicament so either you babysit or i find someone else your choice"
I end the call. It's going to be a long day.
I check my emails to see if i got any job offers because im over working this company.
My phone starts ringing again and i decide to ignore it since i already had an idea who was calling.

I decide to write my resignation letter in advance. Maybe i can go back to school, or maybe try doing something that i actually love.
I did Finance in school because my dad said i had to do a course that guaranteed me a job after completion.
So i chose it but i always had love to writing stories.

I was going to start writing after college but i fell pregnant and i had to think of my kids firsy before my dream.
But now since their rich father has decided to come back in their lives he can handle everything while i find my foot in the writing world.

Im going to use this as an opportunity, he wants to be a present parent. Well Damien you got what you wished for.

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It's been a while I know.
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I hope you guys enjoy this chapter

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April