You Gave Me The Sun.Twice!!

CHAPTER 26

"No no no, please no!!"it's been 4 weeks since I last spoke with Damien, Mia has been taking the kids to Damien's place the last three weekends since we aren't in talking terms. Well since I'm not in talking terms with him.
He keeps calling and texting and I just don't want to talk to him right now.

I just did a pregnancy test and it came back positive. I am still sitting in the bathroom looking at the positive test.
I have been postponing taking the test because I knew what it would say.

I started having pregnancy symptoms 2 weeks ago like  having weird cravings, I didn't even realise I had a weird food craving when I added hot sauce to strawberries. My sister came into the kitchen at that moment and the look on her face gave it away. She looked so disgusted and I quickly covered it up by saying I saw a tiktok and I wanted to try it out that was the first sign and secondly Carrie and Dj had started sleeping on my tummy more and rubbing their little hands on it too, I knew then that I was fucked.

What I don't understand is how I can be pregnant when I was on the pill, I never missed a single pill and I have never thrown up even after drinking alcohol. This is the universe playing games with me.
Maybe the test is wrong I need to go to the hospital soon.
But not today, I need to come to terms with the possibility that I might be pregnant.

I am still sitting on the bathroom floor when the twins run into my bathroom

"Mummy can we please go out for dinner with daddy."Carrie asks.

" Ofcourse baby,I told you guys you can go to your dad anytime you want and that includes dinner ," I state.
" Mom, I mean all of us, you included." She says

" Hunny I'm not feeling well today,"

" That's what you said last week mama," she whines

" Yeah mummy that's what you said last week and the week before" Dj says.

" Mama did daddy do something that annoyed you?" Carrie asks.

" No baby, why would you say that, your father and I are just fine" I say with a forced smile.
We are more than fine we are about to have another unplanned baby.

I did not think they would notice that I have been coming up with excuses not to be in the same room as their father

I guess I can't avoid him forever.

"Okay we can go out for dinner and before you say anything yes I am coming too"I say.
That's when they break into my favorite little smiles.
Dammnn why have I been doing this to them.

"Well daddy is down stairs so you have an hour to get ready then we leave for dinner "
They quickly rush out of the room giggling.

I turn around to face the mirror and I know I have to hide the test. I do not even know where to hide them.
I decide on placing them behind the bathroom basin since there is an opening behind the basin.

I decide to take a shower and prepare for that dinner with Damien.

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After taking the shower my mind is made up, I have to inform Damien he is going to be a father. I am not doing this alone this time because last time was terrible.

I had a wild thought of calling my parents but I shut that down quickly, some parents are just toxic and I do not want my kids around that kind of negativity.

I did try to reach out to them when the kids were around 2 years old and I regretted calling immediately.
All my mom wanted to know was if I had come to my senses about giving my babies up. She further said I would be a terrible mother because she could tell these things.
Not once did she ask if I was good or if Mia was good too.
Nope not at all
She ended the call by telling me not to show up with my bastards ever in front of her. So the best mother award would definitely never be hers.
I decide to wear a cute yellow dress and my black block heels for the dinner.
I just put my hair in a ponytail since I really don't feel like styling it.
I also take my purse from the closet put my card, phone and money inside just incase. You never know these days with the guys of this generation.