You Gave Me The Sun.Twice!!

Chapter 1

6 years later

Jessica's Point Of View

I am busy in the living room trying to finish writing my CV but I can not seem to get anything done. Why you ask me?
I am having a disagreement with none other than the lady of the house, my 5 year old daughter Carrie Lincoln.
For a 5 year old she sure knows how to get me all worked up.
I have been having this conversation with her for the past thirty minutes.
She never gets tired of talking, I do encourage her to express herself and everything but right now I have to finish this.

"Carrie I already told you this , your father is an insensitive prick okay, he does not believe in happy ever afters, he wouldn't even know what love was even if it hit him in the face, stop trying to get me to tell you who he is, just focus on school for now okay baby, by the way you are only five years old and you should be focusing on playtime and naps, not bugging me about your father. Your twin brother is outside go play with him while I apply for a new financing job okay. I promise I will tell you about him when the time is right. Now I hear Junior calling you, run along"
I know I am not suppose to be telling a 5 year old all this. But with Carrie you have to be honest with her, she has a mind of a 30 year old even though she is only 5.

"But mom!!" She whines.
"No buts Missy, now go outside and play with your brother"I say in a stern voice.
Geez Carrie is such a drama queen but I love her to death. I wonder were she got that attitude from because I know it is not from me.
She finally leaves me alone to finish what I was doing. But by the look on her face I know this conversation is far from over.
Junior, my son and Carrie are polar opposites. Junior is quiet while Carrie is always up and about, it is hard to tell they are twins well besides the fact that they were born on the same day.
Carrie has blond hair like Damien their father and Junior is has dark hair just like me. Their eyes are of the color of the blue skies just like their fathers.
Why did I have to think about him right now. It has been 6 years since I have seen him. What am I even saying. I still dream about our 8 months together 6 years ago.
His hot mouth and hands all over my body.
His warm breath all over me, I still feel tingles all over when I think of all the great love making which occurred from the time we met on his cruiseahio when I went on vacation after I graduated from university of California with honors in Finance. Nope! back up, wrong term when we had sex not made love.
That very day was my twenty first birthday.
To think I was a virgin and I gave him my all that day. Damien Anderson had been eyeing me the whole night, gawking would be the appropriate word.
When he approached me wearing a black suit with a white shirt with the first two buttons opened, I swear I was drooling that day.
Damien is the type of male who screams confidence and power from across the room. I could see it from were I was standing.

"where have I seen him before" I asked my self.

"Hie, Damien Anderson! what is a lovely beautiful lady going all alone during this beautiful party night?" he asked when he finally made his way to were I was standing all alone.
I came here with a few friends of mine from University but immediately when we got on the boat they all disappeared.
For a second there I stumbled on my words. His voice was so sexy. I suddenly felt naked standing in front of him with the way he was looking at me.
I could feel my niples getting hard and had not even touched me yet. What the heck, this has never happened to me ever
"Hie, I am Jessica Lincoln, this is what I usually do honestly I just sit back and watch the party animals act all crazy. I used to do that back home when my friends would force me to go out with them but now that I think about it I bet it was so that I could look after them and watch their stuff. Well anyway I would go sit on a barstool and just watch everything, I am an observer and I guess it is the closest I will ever get at being wild and free, "I say.
Why am I telling him all this, Jessica get a hold of yourself you do not even know this man and you are already telling him everything about yourself. He is looking at me and I can see amusement in his eyes. He finds me amusing? this is a first. I can not believe he is checking me out already and he does not do it with a hidden glance, he wants me to see he is checking me out, my nipples get hard and I think he sees it through my dress. His eyes glance back at mine and he licks his bottom lip. I can still see it even in my dreams and it has been 6 years.

"Mom, mom" I snap out of my daydreaming to hear Damien Junior calling me.Being called mom is the best feeling ever honestly. I remember when I realized I was pregnant I was freaking out, I was 21 and pregnant this was not the plan at all. I had everything planned out with my older sister. I was going to work in a finance company then after 5 years buy a 3 bedroomed house, get married then have kids, but after I gave birth to my babies I felt contentment. It really was love at first sight. The first time they called me mama, I cried my eyes out, I was the sweetest thing ever. They were early bloomers, they started walking at 8 months well Carrie did walk first and a few days later Junior joined her. I am glad I managed to capture every milestone on camera and they can look back at everything when they are old enough to appreciate the moments.
I smile at him from the kitchen counter, I still remember the day Carrie and Junior were born, it was the happiest and yet the saddest moment of my life. I had wanted to share the moment with their father, I mean I had loved him then, it is his loss at the end of the day.

"What is it baby?" I ask my son.

"Mom, I told you not to call me baby anymore, I am 5 years old, that's practically a grownup now mom" Damien says pouting like his father used to do when he was trying to make a point.

"I am sorry bab... I mean Junior" I smile back.

"Anyway, aunt Mia is here" he says then he turns and goes back to play. I always tell them not to open the door without my permission but they never listen. Kids!
Thank God Mia is here, i have to go drop off my application at Crows Finance Firm in 2 hours time. Mia is my sister and practically my best friend.
We were not always this close growing up but things changed as time went, my pregnancy made us tighter honestly.

"Mia, thank God you are here, i cooked and the food is in the oven, make sure Carrie and Junior sleep at 8pm if I am not back by then, do not let them play you and tell you otherwise, they should bath too okay, I'm out,"
I kiss her on the cheek and run out.
It is 3pm right now so I have to hurry before they close for the day.
I have to go drop off my application, I am not unemployed at the moment.
But I saw an ad on one of the newspapers two days ago and I decided to just apply and see what happens.

My current job is great obviously, but I need something new. I need to start saving for the future and the position I am applying for will be able to help me secure the kind of future I want for my children.

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