I looked at Heejin with apprehension, she had guilt written all over her face and the more she struggled to find the way to start the conversation, the more I understood the seriousness of what she was about to tell me.
"I'll just start from the beginning" She ended saying after multiple tries.
"I did all my four years of high school at the Guam High School. I was very popular amongst our generation but you never listened to gossip or even knew what was going on so you didn't know I existed. On top of that, you and I never had any classes together, in fact we never even spoke until the third year when I confessed my feelings to you. That day you were a perfect gentleman about your rejection and even though I felt humiliated because most of my classmates knew about my crush, I didn't hate you for it. But then, to add to my humiliation, you publicly started dating Jeon Jungkook, a boy. Everyone made fun of me, my status dropped considerably and in a matter of days I had gone from popular to laughingstock. Kids can be so mean" She scoffed.
Even now, I couldn't remember ever seeing her, I felt bad for never knowing she existed and causing her so much trouble, even though I never meant for any of it to happen.
"Before you two got together, some people were already talking about you and so I got curious about that Jungkook guy who had taken over the school. I searched everything I could about him and started telling everyone about how he had gotten expelled. I knew you were a good boy and I hoped you'd stay away from him if you knew who he was and so when you started dating, I got scared for you, as well as very angry... That kid, Jungwon, the one who told you about Jungkook beating up his ex, he was my neighbour at the time, I paid him twenty bucks to go tell you that story so you would know who you were getting involved with-"
"You didn't do this because you were scared for me, Heejin. You did this because you wanted to break us up"
"I did and I was so happy when it happened..."
I scoffed, any remorse I felt for her was out the window.
"After we graduated, I saw you in class at the academy and I walked over to you. I felt so happy to have someone from my old high school and the chances of that person being you were so slim, it could only be fate. I didn't blame you for being gay, in fact it helped me get over you and I was so sure we could be friends now. And so I walked over and said hi and when you didn't recognize me, it was as if I was sixteen and humiliated once again"
My mind went back to that day, the day I thought I had met a stranger on my first day of acting class at the academy, everything felt like a lie now.
"I thought about telling you who I was but in the end, this was a real fresh start for me so I never said anything and we became friends. Until one day, as I was going through the files my assistant made of possible bodyguards, a certain name caught my eye. The moment I read his name, all my anger came back because I may have forgiven you but I hated Jeon Jungkook. I hired him just to dangle you and your brand new life and boyfriend in front of him. I wanted to break him as he was forced to see you happy with someone else, and a side bonus was torturing you a bit as well... I was so sure you and Bogum were endgame, I never thought he'd be able to steal you back. I guess I never wanted to believe you and him ever really had a connection... I wanted Jungkook to remain a fling of the past..."
Inside, I felt like I should forgive her, she was clearly messed up with some issues that needed to be worked on, but when I opened my mouth to say it, something else came out.
"You're the reason for so much of my pain"
"I know...And I know it's not enough but, I am sorry. When you told me you had left Bogum for Jungkook and how happy you were, I realized you two truly loved each other and I felt bad about everything I had done..."
