VENUS & MARS [MPREG ENG VERSION]

THE WEDDING - PART II

| CHAPTER XVII |

The longest minutes of my life. During the bridal walk, I had to walk one foot at a time, following Louis and smiling at everybody there. Most of them I hadn't seen before, and made me think how strange it was to have this moment attended by strangers.

From time to time, I would put my eyes on Harry, it would calm me down, and along the whole aisle I would try to control my nervousness.

Louis was very emotional. I wished I could dive into the immensity of those blue eyes and feel the same chill, the same feeling of peace that those green eyes transmitted to me. But unfortunately it was not the same.

For a brief moment, I turned my attention to Harry while the bailiff was giving a beautiful speech about love, something that made no sense to Louis and me. What existed between us was not love, never has been. But he was the one I was marrying and he's the one I should be looking at.

I looked at my fiance's emotional face again, and this time I smiled. Louis made his vows, something he had been memorizing for days. I had heard it before and that's why none of those words touched me deeply. Not even his crying voice.

At the end, Louis said he loved me. That "I love you" did a great job of startling all those guests. I wish I had the eyes of anyone just to see my own reaction.

"Your turn!" ordered the bailiff when he noticed that I had done nothing at the end of my fiance's speech.

"OK... my turn." I repeated the sentence by closing my eyes briefly, just looking for the words.

I had made my vows, I knew what to say, I had the best teacher. But the restlessness of that moment was so hard. So I had to improvise something.

"One night, I met someone" I started by opening my eyes to look at Louis. "It was a very stressful day for me, but some wise words got me thinking about what love should mean."

The place was in total silence and there was great attention between everybody.

"Being in a marriage was more than just compromises. Marriage was simply about living in respect and harmony. It was a place where I could feel free to be who I truly am, without judgment, without having to pretend I'm okay because I won't be okay every time. I'm here today because I chose Louis. Next to him I intend to be who I always wanted to be."

The silence was the same and the reactions to my speech were quite different from Louis' vows. Maybe I really was making the impact I wanted to make.

"I accept you today as my husband." I declared looking deep into his eyes. "And I want to feel happy by your side."

I decided to stop there, it was the best I could do. I would not force myself to use too much triviality in my words.