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Chapter Three

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♣Newt's POV♣

When I wake Thomas isn't with me.

It was just all just a dream,a stupid dream that I wish was real.

Thomas hasn't contacted me since I left his house.

Not that I'm surprised.

I get up and dressed and go and sit on the sofa in front of the tv. Gally comes down minutes later with Alby.

"Hey," Alby says sitting down on the sofa next to me.

We haven't talked.

Not properly since he found me not breathing anyway.

"Hi," I say bluntly.

"Er, how, er, are you? Shit, that's a bad question isn't it," Alby says ashamed.

"You don't have to tip toe around me you know, I'm not a child!" I say annoyed. "Plus, I'm fine," I add. Hoping if I say it enough times it will become true.

"Okay then," Alby says sighing and getting up.

I can tell he's wondering why he bothers.

Like everyone does.

Even Kester.

The home phone rings but I don't go to answer it, it wouldn't be for anyway.

Gally answers the phone and then comes into the living room at chucks it at me.

"It's for you, clotpole,"

"What??" I ask him and then pick the phone up and put it to me ear.

"Hello?" I ask awkwardly.

"Hi, it's Minho," I hear on the other line.

"Er, hi. If this about the other night, I'm really sorry," I sigh.

"No, er, me and the guys--and T, wanted to know if you wanted to come out with us. We have a spare ticket for Imagine Dragons tonight,"

"Wha--. Really?" I say smiling.

"So you'll come right? Thomas really wants you to come," Minho says. Then adds, "Wait a sec, Thomas wants the phone," I hear shuffling on the line and then Tommy's voice.

"Please come?" He pleads.

"I-- I just, don't think that's a good idea Tommy," I stutter.

Everyone who gets close to me gets hurt. No one can put up with me.

"Newt,..." I hear his voice drop sadly.

I bite my lip and open my mouth without thinking.

"Okay," I say.

"Okay?" He says questioningly.

"Okay!" I say laughing.

"Okay, erm, so well meet you---" I hear shuffling on the line again. "MIN GIVE ME BACK THE PHONE!" I hear Thomas shout.

"Bye Newt, see ya later," I hear Minho says and then the line goes dead.

I spend all day worring about the concert.

Thinking about what could go wrong.

By five pm I don't have long left until I have to go and meet everyone so I grab and quick snack and then leave.

When I get to the venue everyones waiting.

And stairing at me.

I'm late.

They probably hate me already.

"Sorry I'm late," I mumble my voice getting quieter.

I hear Teresa scoff but Thomas steps forward and wraps an arm around me.

"It's cool, we're just glad you came," He says smiling.

When we get into the venue I notice how many people are going to be here when the room fills up and begin to panic.

Thomas hand brushes against mine and look up at him and he doesn't even have to say anything. His eyes are literally telling me it's going to be ok.

Half way through Imagine Dragons set I leave to go and pee. When I come out there's a guy leant up against the wall next to the door.

My dad.

"Da--ad?"

He looks over at me and I can tell he's mad.

He stomps towards me and I stumble backwards. Into Tommy no less.

"Careful Newtie," Tommy says chuckling quietly.

Then he looks up and sees my dad.

I think he knows he's the reason I moved away.

But I don't think he knows who he is and why I moved away.

"Newt," "Who's this?" My dad says knotting his eyebrows.

Like he gives a shit.

He's been gone a year.

Even me trying to kill myself didn't urge him to come back.

Didn't make him realise I needed him.

"Thomas," I say in my dads direction then pull Thomas back into the arena.

"What was that?" Thomas says whispers into my ear.

I don't reply.

"I think I should go," I say and pick my bag up.

"Please don't. We're having a good time aren't we?" He says.

"Yes. But I need to go Tommy,"

"Okay, but, here, take my jacket or you'll freeze to death," He says handing  me his jacket.

I put it over my head and it's too big for me. Not extremely big. But still big.

"Thanks," I smile.

As I leave the arena I take in a small breathe and end up taking in Thomas' sent from the jumper.

When I get home I'm too tired and annoyed to even ask Gally if Dad had bothered him as well.

I close my eyes and fall asleep.

Not realising I still had Thomas' jacket on.

But it's safe to say, I had no bad dreams that night. Which is weird.

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This is so short and shit and for that I am sorry.

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All the love x

-char x