insecure //newtmas au

Chapter Eleven

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♠️Thomas' POV♠️

Walking into school I catch Newt's gaze and my heart drops.

He's been crying.

I can tell.

"New--," I start to say but he keeps walking.

I want to cry.

But I don't.

Not here.

Not because of him.

After my second and last class of the day, I come out to see Newt standing there. Waiting.

His gaze catches mine and I want to die. I hate doing this to him. Why am I doing this to him.

"I'm sorry about yesterday..." He says looking at the floor.

"No. It's my fault, I should of told you about Teresa," I say.

He winces when I say her name.

"I just, I got jealous," He says biting on his lip nervously. "I like you a lot, and I want to be with you and for people to know," his voices shakes and I can tell he's about to cry.

"Newt..." I trail off. "I want that too," "Me and Teresa have been friends for years, but it isn't what you think, okay?" I say grabbing his hands and looking into his eyes.

He cracks a small smile and I swear the heavens are singing. Cheesy but defiantly correct.

"So..." Newt says.

"So..." I read back.

Minho walks past and shouts. "If you two don't make out right now I'll be forced to take serious protocols!"

We laugh and I lean in to press my lips against his. I can still feel him protesting a little bit, but I know he wants this too, I know he needs this.

It feels right.

When he pulls away I feel bad again. He's like a drug. I don't think he realised the effect he has on me.

People walk past us and snigger Newt goes to say something but I shake my head. They aren't worth it.

I offer him my hand and we walk out of school hand in hand.

I keep thinking about what Brenda said.

What Gally said.

I need to tell him.

I need to.

I stop him for a second.

"Newt I need to tell you something," I say seriously.

"Me too," He says. "Tommy I may have not know you very long. But you're my rock, my anchor. You've been there for me in some of my worst time and I ---," He says. He isn't really going to say it, is he?

"I love you," My heart shatters.

How can I tell him now?

He'd never forgive me.

Ever.

I push the thoughts to the back of my mind.

"I love you too Newt," I say while caressing his cheek.

He kisses me and I can't help but feel happy.

I can't loose him.

I'm not going to loose him.

He's never going to know.

I pull back to take a breath and he pouts. I laugh and press a kiss to his temple.

I'm so in love with him.

What have I got myself in for.

He takes my hand again and it just feels like the simplest thing in the world, but it just made me feel normal, for once.

"Can I come to yours?" I ask Newt and he nods.

"Yeah, sure. Mum will be out anyway and dad got  put in prison from breaking our restraining order when he found me at the concert," He says.

"I'm sorry Newt," I say as we walk to his house. When we get there Newt pushes me to the wall.

Erm, where did that come from.

I go to say something but he presses his lips to mine and I don't object.

We both need this right now.

We both need this distraction.

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I'm sorry this chapter is so short, but it wasn't really a time for an update but I thought I'd write anyway, so.

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-char x