insecure //newtmas au

Chapter Eight

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♠️Thomas' POV♠️ 

I feel bad for making Newt leave. But I knew I HAD to make him go, nothing could happen, EVER. I shouldn't of kissed him. It shouldn't of happened and it won't again, I won't let it.

Pulling me from my thoughts, somebody knocks at the door. I open it and also sigh.

Newt. 

"Er," I begin to say but he cuts me off and barges past me.

"I'm going to talk, and whether you like it or not, you are going to listen, okay?" Newt says looking at me right in the eyes.

"Okay," I say quietly.

"I like you, a lot, okay? An-" He says but I cut him off.

"Wait what?" I say unknowing, blushing a bit.

"I'm not finished!" He says raising his voice and I nod awkwardly waiting for him to continue. 

"I like you, a lot. And I know we haven't know each other very long,okay? I know. But you're my rock... You know that happened last year, and it's been so hard to carry on and everything is so triggering to me, and even Kester was starting to give up on me. But you, you didn't. You just came out of no where with your stupid brown eyes and cute smile and took me under your wing. And I just.. Thomas I-" He says but I cut him off once again.

"Tommy," I say sadly.

"What?" Newt says confused.

"Tommy, you normally call me Tommy, not Thomas.. I-- I don't like when you do that," I admit.

"Tommy," He repeats and I close my eyes as the word rolls off his tongue. Tommy.

"I don't know where we are with this okay? One minute we are being really close and everything, the next minute you're pushing me away... And I'm meant to be with mental issues, not you," He says.

"I don't want to hurt you Newt,"I say looking at the floor.

"You won't,"

"You don't know that..."

"Tommy..." He says and reaches out to touch me but I flinch away from his touch.

"Please don't," I say, a tear rolling down my cheek.

"Okay," He says then adds. "When you've figured out what you want, text me okay?" He says and comes towards me again and this time I let him.

He kisses my forehead and my heart melts a little.

I can't hurt him.

I can't, I can't.

But he needs me, and I think I need him too.

I give him a small nod and then he leaves.

Tears still falling from my eyes,I sit down.

My phone bleeps and I pull it out.

Brenda; dude, what's going on?? I just found Newt near a bridge and I thought he was going to jump... Ur meant to b keeping an eye on him!!

Then another one comes through.

Brenda; He's falling in love w you Thomas, anyone can see that. U need 2 quit while ur ahead b4 u hurt him.

I type back a reply.

Me; I don't think I could hurt him if i tried B..

Brenda; You don't think him being part of ur job isn't going  to hurt him?? ur mad. If this is going to continue he NEEDS to know.

Me; I know

Me; But I'm falling for him B. This wasn't meant to happen:(

Brenda; I know hun x

I put my phone down and sigh. 

What am I going to do?

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GUESS WHO'S BACK, BACK, BACK, CHARLOTTE'S BACK, BACK, BACK.

Yooooo, did you miss me???? ;)

This is a short chapter so I'm sorry but like my brain is like mush at the moment. But i'll try to get into updating often again, okay :)

I hope you enjoyed this chapter, if you did PLEASE(i'm a beg k) vote, comment and share because it honestly does make me update faster and I don't want to be that person that sets goals before they update...

all the love x

-Char x

p.s if anyone is good at making covers can someone make me one for this story because i'm absolutely shit at making them. Thanks x