I wish someone warned me about falling into vicious cycles of self destruction. but there's got to be a reason why all of that has happened.
I want to explain how tired I am. sleep won't fix anything I'm constantly drowning and suffocating on a black wave of emptiness.
I wonder if later I will forgive myself.
I don't belong anywhere and I never belonged to anyone while everyone else belong somewhere and to someone. how unfair.
the other day I was laying down in complete silence and darkness and I felt my heart beating. and I realized I live too much inside of my mind, I never live inside of my body. I want to be myself again, I want to stop knowing everything I know.
