I'm in school sitting down because I have practiced enough. Lily is still practicing with Alexa's partner and I'm sitting down with Alex because I've the worst cramps right now and my stomach hurts to death. I'm just sitting and watching Lily play and admiring how good everyone plays while I don't. I tested Jake yesterday and told him about how I was planning on confessing, and he said it was a great idea and whatever his answer would be for the best and it wouldn't hurt since he knows me so well,
he knows that I won't be hurt just because he doesn't like me back. He knows that nothing would change even if he didn't like me back because when you like someone you can't always expect the feelings back from that person. And he knows I understand that. And we should never expect that either because once we start expecting that same feeling back and don't get it.
It hurts a lot. Jake told me he would help me so I'm just going to sit here and wait. It was just me and Alexa sitting down but then Alex came and sat next to me. Me, Alex, and Alexa are sitting down and looking at different things in complete silence. "Did you get any texts from my account yesterday?" Alex asks me. I look at him with a confused expression and then nod. "Those tests were sent by my friend not me" he speaks. That one sentence broke my heart. Those cute flirty texts were not sent by him. How could this even be possible? I was so happy thinking that it was, and everything was perfect.
Why did he even tell me this. This really sucks now. This day really can't get worse. Jake is coming towards us, and Alex and I both notice him coming at the same time. Alex gets up and runs towards Jake and they both talk about sometime for about a minute and then both of them look at me and Alex moves away from Jake and starts to play badminton. Jake walks towards me and asks how I am and stuff. I tell him I'm not feeling well, and I also tell him about all the texts I had with him and what happened between Lily and Alex yesterday and also how I was planning on confessing to him.
"It's going to be lunch break in 5 minutes. Don't worry and have lunch I will tell you whether you should confess or not" Jakes says to me. I nod and I head towards Lily pulling her to have lunch and stop practicing. We both sit down nearby jenny's group and have lunch. I wave at jenny asking her to come and talk to me. She nods and comes and sits next to me. I tell her about everything and ask her if I should confess to him or not. Lily gets up and runs to washroom and I don't stop her. I wait for Jenny to tell me her opinion. "I think you should confess to him; it's been too long, and he needs to know! and please make it romantic" she says to me.
"Romantic? I have no idea of how confessing is done, and I don't know how to be romantic. All know is cringe pickup lines" I say.
"You started liking him since March past, right? So, say something related to how long you have been liking him" she says rolling her eyes.
"Okay so how about this? 'I've had a crush on you since marchpast and I know that you don't like me, but I still want to know it from your side'" I say extremely fast.
"That is not at all romantic" she says rolling her eyes again.
"Well, I don't know how to be romantic!" I shout.
"Okay fine this will do but say it slowly and calmly bring him into that feeling and stuff" she says. "That's cringe but okay sister!" I say in a teasing manner and then I go in search of lily. I saw talking with some kids, so I went and pulled her and told her that lunch break was over, and we had to practice. we both came back to quadrangle to practice and on way there I told her everything about what I talked with Jenny.
"Ok! Let me help you practice. Think that I'm Alex and confess to me" she says. "No way!" I speak. And then we both practice for one hour because Alex is nowhere to be seen Lily tells Alexa about this even though I told Lily not to tell anyone. Alexa said she would help me speak to him so I could confess and that was the plan. Alex walked into school and sat down, and then Jake came after ten minutes. I ran to Jake so caught his attention "Bro should I confess?" I ask him.
