It's been 10 minutes since we reached this new school. Everyone who is there is Marchpast is getting read because that's the first think that is going to happen. Everyone is now forming a line and moving to the middle part of the ground. Everyone stands in their positions, and we wait for the other school that we are going to be competing with to go first. And then we follow then. After the Marchpast is done and we are back in our positions. We all sit down since we have to watch the dance now. Even our school is performing dance. I wanted to join but since I'm there in sports and marchpast I couldn't join dance. But I still prefer dance over sports. All the school are performing their dance one by one, and the music is pretty enjoyable so I'm just shaking my head and vibing with the music. I turn back to have a glance at Alex and He is also doing the same thing I am. I'm not looking at the dance, I'm looking at the grass and shaking my head and vibing with the songs. And he is doing the exact same thing. As soon as I look at him, he looks at me and I look away as soon as he catches me looking at him. There is just one second eye contact we have and for some reason I don't like it. I didn't want to him to see me looking at him. I'm just making him more uncomfortable at this point. I don't what to do with myself anymore. Why is this day turning into a mess!? I just look and the ground and continue vibing with the music and I don't look back again at all even I have the urge to do it. I can't do it. I shouldn't do it. I don't want to make this more complicated than it already is. I have to find a solution to solve this first instead of making this even worse. But I don't know what to do. I don't know! What can possibly solve this mess I've created? What can I do? I can't think of a solution. I need to talk to Naz; she can help me find a solution after all she is my bestie and my therapist. But I need to solve this as soon as possible and I don't have the time to wait to till I go home to text and ask her what to do. I don't even have my phone with me right now. Who else can help me right now. Who!? Oh wait. JAKE! He can help me. he also came here for his baseball match. I can talk to him. I can ask him for help and this time I will listen to all the advice he gives me, and I know they will definitely work. I'm not going to do anything now. I'll wait for this to finish and find the right time to talk to him and then listen to what he said. Jake is the only person who can save me right now. He is the only person who will help me. This dance thing should finish as fast as possible so I can go meet Jake and ask for his help, ask for his advice. Oh, thank God he is there or else I would be dead right now! I'm so grateful for having him right now. Thank heavens! Now I just got to wait for this to end so I can go and find Jake and finally talk to him about everything. But this dance just doesn't seem to end. I'm so bored of watching it because even though I love dance I just have other priorities right now and that's more important at the movement and this dance not so interesting anyway. I just want this to end so I can talk to Jake. Even though I'm the one who created this mess I need someone's help to clean it up now, I'm so done with my life like-
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I'm sitting down while waiting for Lily, she went to change. I'm looking around to find Jake, but I can't find him anywhere. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I was dependent on him but now I can't even find him. I don't know what I'm going to do now, I guess I have to find out something on my own. It's going to be hard because my brain is not as matured as Jake and Naz and their advises work like fire but if I do something on my own, I just mess up everything and I've learned my lesson but creating this mess, so I need to fix this first.
And to fix this I need to find Jake first. There is no way I can find him by just sitting in this one place I need to get up and look around but first I have to go find Lily so she can help me even though she doesn't care about any of this shit. I'm walking towards the washrooms, and I spot Alex in his sports uniform, he looks so good. Literally so good. I wish I could just keep staring at him, but I can't, because I have to find Lily. Oh god here I'm trying to get over him and stop liking him but instead my feelings for him are just growing even though I'm trying to avoid them and just be friends with Alex. I don't understand why I've gone mad right now. Like it doesn't make any sense on why I like him knowing that he doesn't like me back. I didn't even expect him to like me back at all but what is even going on.
