As the clock ticks away, marking the passage of time with its steady rhythm, I find myself ruminating on the fact that it has been precisely 15 days since I last spoke with Alex. It feels like an eternity has passed since our last conversation, and yet the memory of our last exchange is still fresh in my mind. I can still hear the sound of his voice, the rhythm of his words, and the warmth of his laughter. It's as if he's still with me, even though we haven't spoken in what feels like an eternity. The days stretch out before me, each one feeling longer and more endless than the last, as I wait for the moment when I can once again hear his voice and feel his presence.
Until then, I am left with nothing but memories and the hope that our next conversation will come soon. As the calendar pages turn and the days draw nearer to the special occasion of his birth, I find myself thinking of the perfect present to award to him. Thus, I set on an attempt to find a present that will touch his heart and soul and serve as a lasting symbol of our bond. I would like to send him a meaningful present as an apology for "ghosting" him earlier.
As I was thinking over the perfect gift for Alex, my mind stumbled to the idea of seeking the help of my dear friend Lily. With her flawless taste and keen eye for detail, I knew that she would be the perfect someone to accompany me on this search. And so, with great excitement, I made plans to set out into the bustling city streets with Lily by my side, in search of the perfect gift for my favourite person. The possibilities were endless, and I couldn't wait to see what treasures we would uncover on our journey together.
I've been feeling pretty awful because I haven't spoken to him in such a long time, but I needed some space, and that distance has made me notice that the longer I have gone without talking to him in these, the more I want to go and give him a hug. I've been feeling really guilty because of this. I long for him in every way possible. his laughter whenever I do something dumb, his provoking me and making me laugh with his lame jokes, him always being able to tell whether or not I'm unhappy... Even while I'm laughing, he can tell if there's something going on in my brain. I was such a terrible person to do this to him because he is such a fantastic friend, and it wrecked everything for us. When he is nearby, I experience a genuine sense of joy. Whenever he is in close contact with me, I feel like the happiest person in the world... I think about him all the time.
"Should I Get Him This?" is a question. While Lily and I examine a ring, I pose the question.
"Is that a ring? What, really? He crushed your heart, you're not even dating, and now you want to buy him a ring. As Lily put it.
"Then, what exactly am I supposed to get him...?" I ask.
"Girl, after what he did to you, you have no business giving him anything," Lily said.
"You already know the reasoning for this. Lily, you have a complete understanding of who I am. The good in others is always what attracts me to them, because that's the kind of person I am."
"Ugh–"
Both of us go from store to store in an attempt to discover what we're looking for, but despite our best efforts, we wind up wasting nearly two hours' worth of time and making little headway in our search. I can read the irritation on Lily's face: she is not happy. She keeps making sarcastic comments and rolling her eyes in response to everything I say... In other words, she is the type of person who has no faith in anything. If she gives you a pursuit, you had better be able to keep it because if you do not, the game will be over for you. She has high expectations for me, but the truth is that I will never be able to live up to those. I am essentially the opposite of her in every way. There are some things between us that are identical, but not everything...
