When I woke up, I was laying on the rooftop and understood that it was all in my head and nothing bad had actually happened. And that I'm alive and am still here. I can't help but think of the nightmare as I stare up at the stars. But what if it did take place? However, I'm confident it will never happen for a few reasons:
(1) Alex has no idea where I currently live.
(2) There is no evil in Alex. His heart consists of gold, I can tell.
To find out the time, I look at my phone. It's 8:00 PM. At 6:30 p.m., I made my way here. Only an hour and a half has passed until now. And in that short period, I had a mental breakdown and nap. Also, an awful nightmare. Wow. I open my texts and I have received texts from various people. But not Alex. As I sit here, feeling the weight of the day on my shoulders, I let out a deep sigh and reach for my phone. With a sense of anticipation, I open up my chat with Alex. As I scroll through our previous conversations, with each message I just feel more and more overwhelmed. As I settle down on the ground. Whenever I think about those moments when he took the time to text me first and talked about my interests, hobbies, and dreams, a wave of emotions covers me, and tears start streaming down my face. It's as if those instances are forever imprinted in my memory. But ever since I mustered up the courage to confess my feelings, I've noticed that our text conversations have been few and far between.
Perhaps it's the weight of unspoken emotions that's causing this change in our communication, or maybe it's the fear of saying the wrong thing and ruining what we have established. Whatever the reason may be, I can't help but feel a sense of longing for the easy chatter and effortless connection we used to share. I hope that we can find a way to bridge this gap and rediscover the comfort and familiarity that once defined our interactions. As I reflect upon my past experiences, I can't help but notice that the majority of the conversations I've had through text messaging were started by me. It's interesting to wonder how different my life would be if I hadn't taken the initiative to start those conversations. It's amazing to think about how one small action, like sending a text message, can have such a significant impact on one's life. As I sat there, observing the texts, I couldn't help but feel a sense of disappointment. On certain days, I would eagerly await a response from him, only to be left feeling disheartened as he chose to simply leave my message on read without any acceptance.
It was as if my words had been cast into a void, left to float aimlessly in the digital the depths. The silence that followed his lack of response was overwhelming, leaving me to wonder what could have possibly caused such a reaction. as I struggle to come to terms with the fact that someone, I care about could behave in such a cruel and insensitive manner. It is a difficult and painful situation to be in, but I am determined to find a way to heal and move forward, even if it means letting go of someone who is unable or unwilling to treat me with the love and care that I deserve. My heart is filled with an abundance of affection for him, a love that is pure and unwavering. Every moment spent with him is a treasure, a precious memory that I hold close to my heart. His presence brings a sense of comfort and happiness that I cannot describe in words. I am grateful for his existence in my life, for he has brought a light into my world that shines brighter than any star in the sky. My love for him is a flame that burns passionately, a fire that cannot be extinguished. He is the missing piece to my puzzle, the one who completes me in every way possible. a small voice in the back of my mind whispers,
"Am I good enough?" And so, I continue to overthink, lost in a world of wonder and self-doubt. With a few deft taps of my fingers, I open Spotify. As the app springs to life, I am greeted by a dazzling array of musical options, each one better than the last. But I know exactly what I want - my all-time favourite song, the one that never fails to lift my spirits and set my heart racing. The reason why this particular song holds a special place in my heart is because I find myself able to connect with the lyrics on a very personal level. The words seem to speak to me in a way that no other songs do, and I am always left feeling a sense of comfort and understanding whenever I listen to it. Whether it's the melody, the rhythm, or the overall vibe of the song, there's just something about it that connects with me on a deep and meaningful level.
