BECOMING

CHAPTER ////////

I hit in the chest with my purse, am not a push over that you ty you can just do whatever with.
Calm down amara.
Don't fucking tell me to calm down?
I started walking off, all his efforts to get me to stop me was meet with me cursing him out.
I stopped to remove my heels, he lifted me off the ground .
Let me go nathan, put me down.
I will let you down if you stop hitting me.
I promise I will.
He put me inside the car . Look at me.
Are you mad about lacey kissing me?
No, am not.
Yes, you are.
How could you allowed her kiss you like that infront of me.
Am sorry, I swear I didn't see it coming. Me talking to her was about the kiss . It was nothing.
You fucking liar; I saw your face you like it.
Jesus ,Amara. I didn't like it.
Why me, tear roll out of my eyes.
Please don't cry. Look at me Amara.
He pulled me into him and sealed his mouth over mine. I resisted as long as I could.
I pulled away. Let just get this and over with.  I know what I signed it for two years. I can't do this.
He shoved hands in to his hair and exhale harshly.
You don't mean that.
I really do, everything was a mistake.
His jaw tightened, it wasn't. The way I handled it was a mistake.
I stare at him, startled by his words.
Am not talking about the sex. Am talking about the marriage.
His hands slid between my legs, pulled my thing aside , his finger curling my slickness with a tender touch.
What are you..... Doing?
Showing you want me as I want you.
Do you want to be with me?
No. That not what_"
Do you know how hard it was for me not to touch you.
He slid one finger carefully in to me.
My eyes closed.
He pulled out and pushed back in to me with two fingers. I couldn't hold back a moan .
My hips circling shamelessly on to his thrusting fingers.
Do you know what you did to me Amara?
Am used to be in control , but you change that last night.  I ' be never experienced anything like this before. Now that I have... I 've got to have it. I'm ve got to have you.
It's just sex, nathan.
Maybe for you.
His words push me in to the brink of orgasm.
I breathed, clutching my breast to ease ache of my nipples
Please , nathan.
Shh... I've got you. The pad of his thumb rubbed my clitoris in gentle circle. Look at me when you come for me.
Everything tense up as he massaged my clit and pushed his fingers in and out in steady.
Don't come now, he ordered me.
He unfasten his belt and unhook his button . He used his knee to pushed his trousers down and lower on to him. Thank God I was wearing a blazer dress.
My hands over his shoulder rocking my hips in a way I wanted him to be hot for me .
Using both hands, nathan commanded my rhythm, tilting me into angle that has his cock rubbing me.  My hips meeting every thrust of his.
"Nathan"  like that. 
Fuck, he curse.
We both came chanting each other names.
Wow.
He used the wipes in the car to clean my legs.
I want you Amara.
You do understand I have some personal stuff I need to work out, and my job.
He kissed me. But you' re worth it and I want you bad enough.  So I guess I don't have a choice, do I.
Plus you are my wife.  What ever it takes I want to spend much time with you ,in and out of bed.
Why me? Am not like those super model .
You are different Amara, smart , beautiful and loyal.
What about lacey, she is going to be a problem for me. Am very jealous person and I could be  irrational with it. You might want to think about that before dealing with some one with self esteem issue like I do.
I know it going to drive me nuts having women salivating all over you and not have the right to say anything.
You have the right now. You are my wife.
You not taking me seriously.
I 've never been  as serious about anything in my life.
You are beautiful and I want the whole world to know you are mine.
More over you 're not the only one who can get possessive.
We are going to figure it out as we go Amara.
It will not be easy.
I know , but we can make it work.
I don't know what he did to you but I promise you I will never let you go through the same.
Do you want to go home or back inside?
Let go home Amara.
Let say bye to nana.
She will understand ,
I pulled my dress down as he called Ed.
Do you want some to eat, should we eat out or eat in.
Eat out.
How about pizza ?
Sounds nice .