TWINEMY (Hyunjin FF)

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~ Felix ~

Hyunjin's hand was intertwined with mine, his thumb rubbing circles. Everything felt so different. Yeah, we held hands before, but this time we're dating. He likes me. Romantically. And I like him. Romantically. He's my boyfriend.

An alarming thought entered my head. I now have to tell him I'm trans. Eventually.

I stared at our hands and swallowed harshly. "Hyunjin."

He turned to me immediately with a faint smile on his lips. His wide eyes met mine and I didn't know how to breathe. Is this real?

"Do you like me?"

He giggled and nodded enthusiastically. "Of course."

"Okay. But what would make you not like me anymore?" I bit my lip in nervousness.

His eyebrows furrowed. "Uhh. Why?"

"Answer, please."

He looked at the wall in thought and then turned back to me. "Maybe if you like went and made out with someone else. I'd be sad. Or if you went around beating random people up for fun. Or if you stole all my belongings and disappeared. Or if you made fun of me in like a not joking way. Like constantly."

He smiled. "But you're not gonna do that, right?"

I smiled back. Obviously not. I pressed my teeth down a bit more on my bottom lip. "What if I was like.. trans?" Risky. Maybe too risky.

He looked confused. "Yeah. 'Cause you are, aren't you?"

I gaped and infernally panicked. He knows?! "What?!"

"Oh. I thought you were. Someone told me. I'm so sorry to assume! I shouldn't have!"

My mind was blank. What do I do? "I am."

His tensed shoulders dropped and he blew out a breath. "You scared me, bro. I thought I was way off. But, yeah, why wouldn't I like you if you're trans?"

"Uh, I don't know." Pause. "So like do you see me as your girlfriend, then?"

"No.. Should I? I thought you like went from like a girl and are actually a guy but like what do you.. identify as?"

"A guy. I was like a girl growing up but I've always been a guy inside. So I'm your boyfriend. That's cool, right?"

He nodded. "Yep."

"That makes you gay. 'Cause if you think you're straight and dating me, that's a problem. People have thought that before, so I just wanted to clarify."

He nodded again. "Yeah, I know."

I laughed awkwardly. I feel like I'm being annoying and making it a big deal.

"Drink?" He handed me a Solo cup. I smiled and sipped it slowly.

Forgot to mention, we're at a party. In the kitchen, sitting at some stools. It's chill in here.

"Where do you think the others are?" Hyunjin got comfortable and rested lightly against my side.

"Changbin and Seungmin are probably still together. They were getting drunk earlier. Minho? He probably found someone cute and is like fucking them. Bangchan? Probably standing in a corner and making sure no one does anything bad."

He laughed brightly. "How do you know the members so well and haven't even known then that long?"

I shrugged. "Minho seems like a sweet guy, but also seems like the type to find someone he wants to spoil and then go have sex. I don't know why. Odd guy."

"Yeah. Maybe he went to Jisung."

"Who?"

"Jisung. He's my brother's friend. Minho and him had a fling a while ago."

"Maybe, then."

We lapsed into a comfortable silence, not including the blasting music and voices all around us.

That was until Sam stormed through the kitchen. He looked positively pissed. Seoconds later, someone stormed after him.

"That's Jisung." Hyunjin had an amused expression.

"Oh." I watched them both leave out of the other kitchen entrance. "What's up with them?"

"No idea."

I hummed. "How's Sam to you?"

"Asshole."

"Huh? For real?"

"Yep. So I don't really care what's wrong with them. They're probably fighting over something stupid like Jisung being gay."

"Sam's homophobic or something?"

He humorlessly laughed. "100%."

"Damn. Violently?"

His lips formed a flat line. "Yep. So he's probably gonna beat the shit out of me when he finds out I have a boyfriend."

I gaped. We're in danger? That has to be a joke. Who would do that? I stood off my stool and dragged him next to me. "Let's go find some of the others."

We went and saw SeungBin sitting on the couch looking confused.

"You guys good?"

Seungmin shook his head. "Peachy encounter with Sam."

"What?!" Hyunjin kneeled down and looked them up and down to make sure they're unhurt.

"He only shoved Seungmin. Because he saw us kiss and like yelled at us before leaving."

"You kissed!?" Hyunjin shot up.

They both blushed and looked away.

"Sorry. Anyways. You're okay?"

They nodded and we sat down to join in on the gay fun.

"So can we go on a double date some time? Since y'all are finally a thing?"

"Uhh."

"Y'all kissed but won't date?" Hyunjin plainly pointed out.

"Don't rush it!" Seungmin complained, leaning on Changbin and rubbing his arms.