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to any who understand:

so uh- have you even been to the hospital cause your so fucked up your parents had to take you there- or you couldnt handle yourself and turned yourself in cause your so fucked up- i know that i said hospital instead of mental hospital cause hospitals also have a section dedicated to the fucked up kiddos- so i was (keep in mind: WAS) in a hospital instead of a mental hospital cause that was closest to me- and let me tell you- BOY WAS IT ABSOLUTE SHITTTT- first off the docters all were busy dealing with the more fucked up kiddies to pay any notice to me (fine by me i have EXTREMLY OVER THE TOP SOCIAL ANXIETY) and since the place i was in was supposed to be for people who have broken legs or cancer of some other shit we, (the mentally brain damaged) have SUCH A SMALL LITTLE PLACE FOR US I SWEAR!! we had our rooms, the outdoor roof where we could play basketball or sit around doing nothing, the roof was fenced off by im sure very VERY strong glass or plastic to stop anyone attempting suicide- so- or we had the indoor SMALL AS FUCK!! little room filled with three workout machines, little kiddie stackable foam blocks and a ping-pong table with two broken paddles and two good ones- so that was it- BESIDES THE FUCKING SHEETS WERE SO FUCKING THIN AND DRY AND FLAT AND THE MATRESS WAS STIFF AS FUCK- and the weekend staff- oh my fucking god the weekend staff- but i aint here to tell you about how awful it was for me- im here to share my highlights (worst) memories of my awful time there so here's my favorite quotes from the workers there:

GIRLS THIS IS NOT A FUCKING PLAYDATE -grumpy af nurse who told me to stop talking to some friends i made at my stay (LIKE BITCH WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO STARE AT THE WALL ALL DAY LONG??)

YOU FUCKING TALKING BACK TO ME- DONT TALK BACK TO ME- I CALL YOU WHAT YOU ARE -that one homophobic nurse that misgendered one of my friends and my friend said: actually i go by they/them

UGH do i really have to deal with them i want to go home -the weekend staff worker who was told to stay to watch over us (LIKE THE FUCK?? BITCH I GET THAT YOU WANT TO GO HOME AND SEE YOUR FAMILY AND STUFF BUT WERE FUCKING STUCK HERE TOO!! WE ALSO WANT TO GO HOME BUT WE FUCKING CANT!!)

DO YOU WANT TO FUCKING DIE- DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR DOING- YOU REALLY WANT TO DIE!! WELL WHATS YOUR FUCKING CASE- WHY ARE YOU HERE WHY ARE YOU HERE-  ANSWER ME!! -the staff person that questioned and verbally abused me while i was sitting in a chair sobbing my fucking eyes out (keep in mind i have stage 100000/10 social anxiety so having someone yell at me- AIRUHGNRIEJ MAKES ME FEEL LIKE AHH-)

no- you dont go by tHEy/tHeM- thats a made up pronoun your a girl -again that homophobic nurse to one of my buddies in the hospital who is non-binary

why are you not talking- listen you need to answer the question- CMON ANSWER!! -nurse on level: im so done with these people right now, to me: the social anxiety gal

HOW MANY TIMES DO I NEED TO TELL YOU- YOUR NOT HERE TO HELP EACHOTHER YOUR HERE TO GET HELP- NOW STOP TALKING -again the grumpy af nurse to me who is chatting to my besties there (most inspirational quote ever am i right guys)

ANNNNNNNNNNND THE END!! i know this chapter a little different and maybe its a small vent but still- and so to anyone who gets me- and y'know has went to the mental hospital (or just regular hospital) i hope you get me

also can i get an f in chat for that poor non-binary person that the nurses kept misgendering and then getting screaming at when they corrected the nurses on their gender