Complicated Lisa G!P ( Completed )

Chapter 1

Lisa's POV

I couldn't help but be proud as I watched a group of girls perform on the stage to introduce themselves as a group. "Baemon" I choreographed the dance of their debut song and I am one of their exclusive mentors.

It has been more than a month of intensive training and now I can see the very good results of their tears, sweat and anger towards me.

I honestly don't know what they think of me as a mentor. I'm strict when it comes to training , when you do wrong, don't expect me to be soft on you.

I yelled at them most of the time and scolded them when they made a mistake and i noticed that only one of them I didn't show me any weakness .

Ahyeon, she is the strength of the group, there was one time when I was very mad and they were all crying except for her. Ahyeon was the only one who comforted all the members, she is not afraid of me, she has confidence in herself that pushes her not to be scared, she even shows her attitude towards me that I liked about her.

She is caring towards all the members but she has a soft spot for their youngest member Chiquita.

Chiquita is the youngest and has spent the shortest time as a trainee, it is the reason why she often makes mistakes which is normal but i won't tolerate.

At the age of 13 she has a swag but when she dances while singing she always gets distracted so she is the one I scold a lot and she really cries every time I scold her. Sometimes I also feel guilty but now that I see her excellent performance, I know that I have done my part as a mentor. I hope that my strictness towards her does not have a negative effect on her emotions .

"why are you smiling like that, who are they?" my mother asked.

"They are my trainees mom, I'm happy that they finally made their debut." I smile at my mother, she sits next to me as we both look at the monitor.

"You did a great job. You look like a proud parent." she gently patted my cheek and I looked at her.

"They were my first trainees , I was so harsh with them . I was guilty of the words I said that hurt them. I hate it when they cry every time I scream, it was like my heart was being pinched but that was the only way I knew to help them.

I don't want them to just learn how to dance, sing and how to perform. I also want them to learn to turn the hurtful words they heard into motivation so that they can improve even more. I want to prepare their emotions for the cruel world they will enter, mom." I lean back as I think about what I've been through.

"They won't appreciate what you did for now, but I know they will understand it one day." My mom really knows how to lighten my mood.

"I hope so mom, even if they don't appreciate it, as long as they learn something. seeing them be successful in their dreams is an achievement for me as a mentor. If i can only remove the toxicity, i will do it for young generations of idols who will not be able to experience what we experienced." I shrug.

People think that our lives are happy and easy, they didn't know we were already choking.

"God knows how proud I am, not only of your career and achievements but also you being a good person, hearing those words from you, I feel like I have done my part as a mother to raise you well." My mom was at the average level of crying so I hugged her. "You know what is the only thing i'm praying for?is for you to have your own family. You're old enough Lisa." She hugged my waist while leaning on my chest.

"at the right time and with the right person mom" I'm not sure what I said but I know that's what will make my mom feel better.

I'm scared . Life under the spotlight is very toxic the more famous you are, the more people will attack you not physically but emotionally , if you are weak? you will go crazy the worst thing is you will commit suicide.

People will watch your every move, you are not allowed to make mistakes because they will throw hate at you as if you are the worst person in the world. They will say a lot of bold and hurtful words, they will judge you as if they know your true personality.

Sometimes, it's not just haters who will test your strength as a person because sometimes, your supporters will also be the cause of your stress, don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to my supporters. I owe everything that i have right now to them. Not all,but most of them are the reason why I don't dare to have a relationship.

You know why? Because all the people I get along with and if they will feel that that person is trying to be in a relationship with me, they will throw hate at that girl and that's what annoys me. They even threaten my best friend Rosie , who everyone thought was my girlfriend before.

I feel like my fans control my life and I'm letting them control me because I keep avoiding the situation, believe me, I tried to follow my happiness once but I ended up giving up in exhaustion.

'Baemon' Maybe it's not obvious because on how i treat them during training but I'm attached to them, being their mentor for a few months makes me feel worried. I was scared not because of the thoughts that they wouldn't be famous because I knew myself that they would be successful.
They are a group of talented young ladies, I don't even know if they have any idea what will happen to them after they open their lives to the public.

Many Idols kill themselves because they are weak, their emotions cannot handle the toxic life they go in. Even me, I've reached the point where I want to end my life because of the pressure and disappointment of not being able to do what I want to do but I'm lucky I have my Park Chae-young, the friend who never gave up on me . She's been my support system in all my battles in life because i can tell everything to my mom, i don't want her to worry about me. Many people think that Me and Rosie are competitors but in real life, we fight life's challenges hand in hand.

I don't know why, but I am worried about Chiquita. She is a very charming , soft and emotional kid, i don't know if she will be able to handle it at her young age. She has a charm that I know can pull anyone to like her but that will also be the reason for toxic solo stans to envy her.

I saw myself in her when I was just starting out in the world of music. I wish she would also find her soulmate like me, when i met Rosie.

I smiled when I remembered Ahyeon. I think Chiquita already found her soulmate. Ahyeon's personality is strong enough to protect her. Their friendship is the same as Rosie and I, I just hope that they will be successful not only as a group but also as individuals.

A/N

hi guys I'm back. Baemon also known as Baby Monster is included in this story, let's see where this story will take us.