INCLINATION

CHAPTER 14 | Woman To Woman

EMIHLE

He closes the door behind him, my legs buckle and i fall down. I cry softly for the man i hurt without meaning to. All I thought I was doing was to protect him so Andile couldn't know about how he had my heart. How i wish I could turn back time to that day when I saw the look in his eyes. The look of hurt and disappointment. The look again when I told him we couldn't see each other again, he begged me to leave him but I couldn’t cause I was too afraid. I was never able to stand up to Andile before and that's why he always did what he did to me.

I slowly get up so I could shower and try to get some sleep. When I walk out of the bathroom I find his aunt sitting on the bed. She opens her arms and I run to her and cry. She comforts me like she always did. She holds me until I calm down. We lay on the bed quietly until the sun starts to rise. I tried to talk but all I could was just cry and she just held me. I wish it was Hlanga who was holding me but I understand that he couldn't cause he's also hurting. I get up and sit on the bed. She does too and I feel so bad that she had to stay up because she was comforting me.

“ He hates me aunty. He can’t stand to be in the same room as me.” I get up, walk to the windows and open the curtains. The are clouds gathering it looks like it’s going to rain hard. I guess it fits the mood I’m feeling right now. This bedroom is beautiful. He hasn’t changed a single thing since the last time I was here. 
“ He’s hurt but he will come around. Just give him time Emy"
“ He says he’s never going to let me go again but what if he’s just saying it because he’s scares that I’m going to hurt him again?” I face her.
“ Well you better not hurt him again and prove to him that he can trust you. Emy, you didn’t tell him that you have left Andile and you also didn’t tell him that you’re here. Why?”
She gets up and hogs the fleece blanket around her shoulders. It’s a little cool in her but I don’t feel it cause I am cold inside and out and nothing could warm me now.
“ I knew you wouldn’t tell him that I have left Andile until I told him myself. I wanted to take time and heal from everything and also deal with the divorce before I could face him. I didn’t want him to think that I’m going to use him to forget about Andile. I wanted to deal with Andile so he could be out of my life for good.”

“ I understand, did you tell him that?”
“ I couldn’t. Hlanga is always intense aunty and you know how scary he can be especially when he’s angry.”.
She sighs. “ I know, finding out that you were kidnapped was shock to him especially what you told him. My brother and Andile are into trafficking body organs? Emy?”
“ Nothing could shock me when it comes to Andile but funding out that his father is also part of it and they are using Hlanga aunty was devastating to me. I didn’t know how I was going to take Andile without hurting him"
“ He will deal with all of them. His relationship with his father is dead now. Motha  is going to be the only man whom he considers as his father.”
“ He’s the only true father he always had, no offense aunty”
“ None taken. I’ll get you some clean clothes while you shower so we can go and have breakfast. Have you called your parents?”
“ Not yet unless if Hlanga has already called them”
“ okay, get ready, I’ll see you just now"
“ Aunty?” She stops walking “ is…is his mother still here?”
Her shoulders sag and she looks at me with pity.
“ She left with his father last night.”

Hlanga's mother is someone I respect but I know that she does not like me at all because I broke her sons heart and any mother will hate any woman who has hurt their children. The few times I have been around her, I could see that she does not like me at all and I would always avoid her. If…no, when Hlanga  and I fix things and give our relationship the chance it should have had from the beginning. I will prove to her that I love her sin and will never break his heart again. I just hope she will also give us a chance to get along for the sake of her son.