INCLINATION

CHAPTER 54 | I'm dead

HLANGA

I haven't talked to this woman since we rescued them and it had been a week. I finally decided to confront her today because we are done with burying her father and other family members that Sergio killed. I wanted her to bury them in peace before I asked for an explanation. I left after Sergio was sentenced, three months after and she didn’t even bother to tell me she was carrying my child? How could Camilla do this to me?.

I can’t believe I am here after all these years when I never thought I would lay my eyes on her again after I left because I had closed that chapter of my life. I was here to do a job and that’s what I did. I had to make sure it's done by any means necessary even if it meant there will be casualties left behind.

I swipe my face and stare at Camilla and the baby she’s holding in her arms. My baby apparently that I never knew anything about and it’s obvious that I was never going to know about her if they didn’t kidnap her family. I haven’t held the child, talked to her or touched her because I am still in shock. I thought it was a ploy to get me to come back to maybe see her again but lying that we have a child together but it wasn’t a lie because we do have a child and she looks like my mother.

Holy fxck. This situation is fucked up and I don’t even know what to do or think. The only I could think about right now is Emy. How the hell am I going to tell her this and how is she going to feel? This child is not Aya, the child she helped me raise in so many ways. The child she loves more than me. This is going to hurt her and that’s the last thing I want.

She gets up and goes to lay her on the bed. She covers her with a blanket then shifts and faces me. She crosses her arms because she’s nervous and doesn’t know what to do. She owes me answers because I have so many questions.
“ Marco, I can explain.” That’s the name they used to call me when I was here. One of my many aliases.
“ How did this happen? You said you were on birth control Camilla"
“ I was taking my pills but that night when you left after we made love, I forgot to take them in the morning because I realized that you were gone. I was hurt, angry and distraught because you left without saying goodbye"

“ I told you I was leaving as soon as Sergio was captured. Why didn’t you take them the next day?”
“ I was heartbroken okay and the last thing I could think about was taking the damn pills.”
“ Keep your voice down, you’ll wake up the child"
“ Your daughter Marco, the one you haven’t even bothered to hold or talk to her. Isabella is yours Marco. She’s our daughter”

“ The one I never knew existed. Were you ever going to tell me about her if Sergio didn’t come looking for me?”
She plays with her fingers. “ My father didn’t want me to bother you…”
“ Don’t you dare use your father as an excuse. You managed to talk to my contact when Sergio was looking for me but you couldn’t tell my contact to please let me know about something this important? That I left you pregnant with my child?. You think I didn’t deserve to know about her or be part of her life?”

“ I was angry at you for just leaving me and not taking me with you. You knew I loved you very much and I begged you to take me with you…”
“ And I said no Camilla because I didn’t love you. I was here to do a job, you and I had an understanding. I never promised you anything because I knew at the end of the day when the job was done. I have a life that’s waiting for me back home and there wasn’t a place for you"
She tears up. Fxck. I don’t need this shit right now. “ So I never meant anything to you at all. The time we spent together never meant anything to you? A whole year was nothing to you?”

“ Camilla, I’ve been all around the world, met many women while I was doing my job and they all knew that whatever we were doing was never going to be more than just a fxck. I never promised you roses and sunshine or my love and loyalty. We were just scratching each other’s itch. You knew this”
“ But you were honored to be my first. You said you will always cherish that moment.”
“ I said a lot of things that day and I remember saying that too because you wanted me to be your first and I gave you what you wanted.”

“ I never meant anything to you at all didn’t I? Why wasn’t I what you needed or wanted?”
“ Because I have always had it.”
“ That woman you used to tell me about.”
“ I love her very much Camilla, she’s everything to me. She is the only woman I have always loved and the only one who has my heart.”

“ What is she going to say about you having a child with another woman?”
“ That’s for me to know, don’t worry yourself with that.  Emy is a wonderful woman and a great mother. She will accept Isabella, she’ll never mistreat her in any kind of way.”
“ I’m sorry I kept her from you. At the beginning I was angry at you but as the time passed, I began to realize what I did was wrong and then it got harder to try and reach you. It wasn’t my intention to not take the pill. I was scared at first but then my family was there for me so it made things a little better.”

“ Have you decided where you’re going to live since….”
“ We can’t stay here, his people might still come after us. We’re not safe in Cuba.”
“ Do you have other family members that don’t live in Cuba?”
“ No, there’s no one.” She wipes her tears.
I heave a deep sigh. “ I’ll have something to take care of. I’ll see you later"
“ Marco…..” I wish she would stop calling me that.
“ Yes?”

“ Are you happy to know about her?”
“ She’s my daughter, of course I’m happy”
“ Please forgive me for keeping her from you"
“ I forgive you Camilla and had you told me you were carrying my child, I was going to make sure that you and her are taken care of.” I tell her then leave her room and head straight to Andile’s room.

I knock once then the door opens and it’s Nikki standing in front of me wearing a t-shirt.
“ I’ll  come back later"
“ Boss…”
“ Tell Andile to come and find me when he’s done with you” I turn around and walk away from her.
“ Yoh Boss!" She shouts.
I head to the bar, order a glass then pull out my phone. I watched the video Vino sent me of Aya and his mother. They are watching a movie, laughing and talking. My heart aches because I’m supposed to be there with them. I need to finish up here as soon as I can so I can go home to my family.

I watch different videos of them until Andile sits next to me. He smells fresh like he just got out of the shower.
“ Is she really yours ?”
“ Yes, the DNA tests confirm it.”
“ Wow, Coco is going to be happy to have someone she’s going to play with”
“ I know”
“ So they are coming with us?”
“ She lost her entire family because of me. Her father died protecting me and now they have no one but each other. How can I leave them here after they protect me?”

“ If it was only your daughter then it would have been easy but now it’s her mother, aunt and uncle. You can’t take your daughter and her mother and leave the other two"
“ This is fxcked up Andile. I don’t want to do anything that is going to affect my relationship with Emy. I don’t want to hurt her and this is going to hurt her"