INCLINATION

CHAPTER 46 |No Choice

EMIHLE.

I gather myself before I walk back to the house. I'm still confused that I felt something when he touched me. I don't even know his name but I guess he must be friends with Siya since he was at his house. Maybe I'll ask Nandi or maybe not cause she might make it a bigger deal than it already is so I'll keep to myself because it meant nothing. But why do I feel like I did something wrong when I reacted that way towards that man?. 

I mean I should only react that way towards Hlanga and not anyone else. Ohk, I'm going to talk to my sister in-law Thando, I know it will stay between us and she will be honest with me. I walk inside the house and head to my bedroom and hide our drinks there but after I pour myself a glass and take a sip. The door opens just as I hide the glass and I almost scream. Jesus, what is wrong with me?. 

" It's only me, there's no need to freak out" 

" Thank God it's you" I take a deep breath then sit down.

" You're flushed, is everything okay" 

" Lock the door" 

She locks it then sits down on the bed. 

" Are you okay?" 

" I am, I don't know. I just had an encounter with someone and it left me feeling weird"

She looks alarmed. " Who was it? What happened? Did they threaten you?"

" No, not like that. It wasn't bad or maybe it was depending on how you look at it."

" Oh, ohk. Tell me what happened" 

I relay the story to her and she's smiling at me when I finish. 

" The thing is, I feel like I betrayed Hlanga in a way you know. Like I wasn't supposed to feel whatever silly tingly feeling I felt when he touched me. I feel like I did something wrong"

" Emy, you are not experienced when it comes to relationships. You fell in love and got married immediately after. You have never been with anyone else other than  Hlanga and Andile so I understand why you would feel like you did something and you didn't."

" Then why does it feel like what I felt is wrong?"

" Just because you're in a relationship with someone it doesn't mean that you don't or won't get attracted to other people. I do, your brother I'm sure does too but that doesn't mean you are going to pursue that silly little crush you felt when you saw them or when he touched you. 

He didn't do it intentionally, he was just protecting you from falling down and hurting yourself. He's a handsome man I think and you're a very beautiful woman that many men find attractive so you did nothing wrong, your reaction was normal. I don't see why you should worry yourself unless that feeling you felt is more than what you described" 

She stares at me. " of course not. It was just just a thing. Nothing like what Gwabini makes me feel" 

" Then that's it. It's normal to feel that way okay?" 

" Thank you Thando" we hug

" Mow give me that glass and I want you to show me that guy when you see him"  We laugh, she drinks and I feel better. I did nothing wrong and Hlanga doesn't need to know.