How To Have You (Professors Series #1.)

Chapter 30

"What... what do you mean let's end this? No!"

Nanatili akong nakatayo sa harapan niya, I wiped my tears by using the back of my palm. I tried to understand her, gusto kong intindihin siya para malaman ko kung ano ba talagang problema namin.

"You were right. Everything was a mistake, you and I was a mistake. Lahat ng nangyari, lahat 'yon mali. I shouldn't have associated with you—"

"No, Claine... ano bang sinasabi mo?"

"Oh, right. But we have nothing to end kasi wala namang tayo, 'di ba?" She stifle a sob, umiwas siya ng tingin sa'kin na para bang ayaw niya akong harapin ngayon. "It's all my fault for assuming things, for assuming that we have something... for assuming na gusto natin ang isa't isa, ang tanga ko kasi naniwala ako na magugustuhan mo rin ako. But all along I was wrong, you are pushing me away because you still love your ex... pero sana naman sinabi mo sa'kin. Tinanong naman kita e, yet you still made me look like a fool..."

She showed me her phone after that phrase, lumabas doon ang isang video. Hindi ako makagalaw sa pwesto ko habang pinapanood ko ang video na 'yon, it was Henry and I on the parking lot. Yakap niya ako, rinig din doon ang mga katagang sinabi ko 'nung gabing 'yon bago niya ako hinalikan. I was horrified by the thought of her knowing what happened, hindi ako makapagsalita. The video was cut after he kissed me and that made my brows furrowed even more, nag-simula 'yon sa pagyakap niya sa'kin at natigil sa paghalik niya sa'kin.

I now finally understand what she was talking about all this time, all of the things that she have said, everything. Naiintindihan ko na lahat, she was hurt and she was blinded by the footage.

I immediately knew that something's wrong, the person that sent her that video wanted to ruin us. That person wanted to ruin my image with her and I will find out who that person is, I'll make them pay.

"Claine, I'm sorry... I'm sorry for keeping that a secret from you, I'm sorry kung hindi ko sinabi. I just don't want you to get hurt—"

"So, you think that's a good job? Tingin mo hindi ako nasasaktan ngayon? To hear what you said and to saw the both of you hugging and kissing? You think that's not painful? Fuck, Avery! It hurts, It's ruining me!"

"Claine, I'm sorry..." 'Yun lang ang tangi 'kong nasambit, ang humingi sakanya ng tawad. I walked towards her and I held her arm while watching her tears streaming down her face. "I'm sorry... I'm really sorry," Kasabay ng paghikbi ko ay ang paninikip ng dibdib ko habang nakikita ko siyang umiiyak sa harapan ko. "If I could take every pain you are feeling right now, trust me. I would."

"Trust you? How... could I?" I saw her gulped, she was trying her best to not cry more.

"This is not the best time for us to talk, you're mad and you're hurt that's why you're saying all of this. You are drunk too kaya halika na, let's go home..."

"I am not going anywhere with you." She warned.

"Please... Claine, umuwi na tayo." I begged before I looked at the wound on her hand again. "Your wounds are bleeding, kailangan nating pumunta sa hospital—"

"Please, let me go. I'm leaving." Tinanggal niya ang braso kong naka-kapit sakanya at tinangka niyang umalis pero hindi ko hinayaan 'yon.

"No! Let's talk. You misunderstood everything. I could never do any of that to you, paniwalaan mo naman ako... I just need you to believe me."

"I'm out of your life, just like how you want before."

She didn't even bother to hear what I was gonna say, binawi niya ang kamay niya at kasabay non ang paglakad niya papunta sa kotse niya. She entered her car furiously, sinubukan 'kong habulin 'yong kotse niya but it's no use. Mabilis na umalis 'yon, leaving me with my weak knees and crushed heart on the ground.