On the train ride back to college, Minho's eyes kept gravitating towards every other detail. Each rusted piece of bolt, the hand prints left behind on the seats, the behavioral patterns of the people next to him, it all seemed to come to him so naturally now.
So why had he been so unaware of the details of his behaviour towards Jisung? Why had he done all that?
Felix often said it was because he had been attacking his own self for whatever reason so long that he latched on to the next person he could victimize. Minho had left out the part about calling Jisung gay when he'd opened up to Felix, he didn't want the boy to be uncomfortable around him knowing he would have treated him similarly had they met earlier.
"If it ever comes out, I'm dead", Minho thought. Felix was his only friend now, he was a psychology major and he was gay too. It was him who had changed Minho's feelings towards gay people. He felt a pang of worry at the back of his mind when he thought about it.
What would Jisung do to him if they ever met?
Right then, his phone buzzed- it was a text from Felix."I'll be there at the station when you return okay? Look for me.", the text said. Minho's heart grew warm, Felix really was such a sunshine.
" And also, you have a new roommate. I'm sure you heard? Today was his first day, he didn't open the door no matter how much I called. Maybe he was tired."
Minho cringed at the thought of having another uncooperative dormmate, his last one was an absolute mess. But then, Minho thought, he's one to speak.
.....
" Minho! Here!", a head full of blonde hair launched towards Minho the minute he stepped down into the station.
" Felix! Thank you so much for waiting, you really didn't have to"
" I wait for all my friends c'mon, no biggie.", Felix picked up on Minho's nervous air," Was the trip fine? "
Minho said, after quite a bit of time," Yep. Absolutely. "
Felix brushed up onto Minho's arm," Didn't you miss meee Minho?? "
" Hehe of course I did.", Minho ruffled the blondes hair.
Felix's face turned a few shades of red, but Minho couldn't notice, Felix looked up to examine Minho's eyes and was both disappointed and relieved by the realisation that they saw nothing.
" Wanna walk to campus? ", Felix suggested, holding tightly onto Minho's arm.
" I-uh-its been a heavy journey, I'll just go by bus? "
Felix hated buses, so he let Minho have his way. He noticed the bags under Minho's eyes, his skin pale was vampires, and his eyes had a distant look in them. Something was worrying Minho, but he was too tired to be questioned.
Felix and Minho parted ways at the bus station.
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Minho entered his dorm and his jaw hit the floor
The room was so clean! There were no signs of a new arrival. No boxes here and there, no strewn about clothes, the only thing different were the new pair of shoes at the doorstep.
"I guess he'll help with cleaning at least", Minho could guess that the dormmate had chosen the other room, and had locked himself in. Being a nosy ass fuck, Minho pressed his ear against the door.
No sound"He must be sleeping", Minho looked at his watch. It was past eleven at night. The journey has been heavy, Minho said, let's go to sleep too.
The minute Minho fell into his bed, his eyes shut tight, and the exhaustion took over.
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FanfictionThroughout high school, Minho was known for bullying an innocent Jisung for being gay. Years later, he finds out that Jisung had "disappeared" since Minho had left for college. Dumbstruck by this information, resentful and guilty, Minho stalks bac...