𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐗 || [𝑴𝒊𝒏𝑺𝒖𝒏𝒈]

Chapter 18- I am, I am, I am

"I love you, Minho"

Minho couldn't breathe. His breath stopped half way.

Was he hearing it right?

"I love you so much, Minho." Jisung breathed out again. He brought his eyes down, and planted his head into Minho's chest.

" But you hate me. "

Minho's eyes widened. He felt like he was hit by a truck. The clock struck 2 a.m.

Moisture hung in the air, everything felt like it was weighing on Minho.

Jisung began to cry. His tears soaked Minho's shirt.

" Wha-", Minho thought.

A pang of worry, oh so familiar, rose in the back of his head again.
But today he knew how to get rid of it.

He took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of his heart : "I am, I am, I am."

He pulled up Jisung by the chin and looked into his eyes.

"Jisung, I love you too! I don't hate you at all! "

" I am, I am, I am. " ,His heart beat on.

Minho felt free. The pang in the back of his head died down slowly.

I'm gay, he thought, I'm gay I'm gay I'm gay! And no-one can stop me now!

" Minho? Minho are you.. are you joking?? You love me?! Bu-but.. "

" I'm sorry for everything, Jisung. " Minho said," the past must still bother you, but right now at this moment- you're all I need. "
"Minho.. Minho.. I-I can't *hic* believe this.. you can't love me! I'm useless! I'm a fag! I cut myself! I can't even play the flute anymore without thinking of you! "

" I'm so sorry- all this because of me? I don't deserve you either Sungie.. you mean more to me than anyone else.. I've spent all these years only looking for your forgiveness. I've been incomplete without you. Like a bird without its wings, or a fish without fins- every moment of my life has led up to this. I've been searching for you in everyone else. I can't believe I'm saying all this.. all of what I've kept at the back of my head for so long!

Its you, it's you, its all for you Sungie! "

Jisung lunged forward to kiss Minho.

Minho knew better. Jisung was drunk. He felt a little melancholic thinking of his past, if only Jisung hadn't reeked of alcohol, he would've kissed the boy.

Kissed? A boy? Jisung at that?

" I never thought it'd come down to this, Sungie.. b-but you still need sleep for the alcohol to wear out. I don't want to impose myself on you. It's against me now. I'm changing, I really am, for you. I'll never let anyone hurt you again, especially not me"

" Then kiss me, Minho! Kiss me please! I-isnt this how t-they d-do it in m-movieszz?"

" Haha sure ,Sungie", said Minho," but we're not acting are we? Let's continue tomorrow, when you're up like the sun. I want you to remember all of it. Promise me you will? ;) "