Losing control (Hiccup x Reader)

Chapter 46

"I can't believe you!" You rant as Spear lands on the grass and you jump off "it's like you're asking for a death wish."
Hiccup sighs as he slides off Toothless "it wasn't my fault, the wind suddenly changed direction."
You roll your eyes "that flying suit of yours was perfectly fine how it was, why did you need to make such big adjustments?"

He looks down at his suit "wanted to give it a upgrade, but it's clearly not ready for testing."
"You're telling me." You mumble walking over to him and turning him around so you could wind up the wing on his back for him.
"Maybe test it at less dangerous heights until you know it's secure."
"Hah, yeah." He chuckles, you frown and flick the back of his head "I'm not joking."
"I know, I know." He turns around beaming "you worry, it's sweet."
"Psh, only because the chief dying under my watch wouldn't be a good rep for me to have." You scoff, he pinches your cheek "no, it's because you loooovveee me."
"Shove off."
He laughs and pulls you into his chest "and I love you too." He kisses the top of your head. You wrap your arms around his waist and squeeze him tightly.

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The next morning you were going about your usual, Gothi was fully stocked on everything she needed so you didn't need to help her today, it was going to be one of them days.
"(Y/n)...?"
You glance over your shoulder...or maybe not.

Fishlegs stood a few feet away, looking extremely nervous. To you, it seemed like he was afraid which was ridiculous, if you wanted to hurt him you sure as hell already would have.
You stare at him blankly, unsure of what to do. He takes a few steps forward "I uh...I wanted to...speak to you...if you're not busy that is."

Wow, he really was scared. Was it of you? Your ability? Maybe he felt guilty for avoiding you, well...if he knew you at all he wouldn't have needed to distance himself, no one else did. But at the same time you understood, it was a shock, someone having such a powerful force and keeping it hidden for over a year. But you couldn't deny that you did miss him. The two of you had fun together, you were good friends and having him avoid you like the Plague the last few weeks had been hurtful.
You turn to face him fully and nod, his eyes light up ever so slightly and he gestures for you to follow him.

He leads you into the forest to a small area. He takes a seat on a large fallen tree and you slowly sit beside him.
An awkward feeling fills the air as neither of you speak. God you hated it, just say something dammit! But you didn't know what.

Fishlegs quietly clears his throat "I uh...wanted to apologise."
You glance at him, he takes a deep breath "I've been a bad friend...I shouldn't have distanced myself."
"It hurt." You whisper "it was one of my main fears about telling everyone. That it would scare them off." You clutch the fabric of your leggings

"look, I didn't keep a secret from you for no reason. My ability is...it's rare and quite powerful. I'd been struggling with it my whole life, if I get too overworked I can't always control it, it's like a blind rage. I was scared of hurting someone. It's my ability and only I understand how it affects me. No one else, I didn't think anyone else could understand." You explain, he nods "how did Hiccup find out?"
"By accident, I never intended to tell him either. But he's actually been great. It did give me some hope."

"I see." He whispers, you turn to face him "I don't want you to think I didn't tell you because I don't trust you. It had nothing to do with that. But your reaction alone was my biggest fear come true. I was so scared of losing you all. And I really thought I did...loose you I mean."

He jumps up from his seat "what? No! I'm sorry for the way I reacted. It was selfish of me!"
"No." You sniff "you were shocked, I knew you would be...I wanted to tell you, but not in the way I did...but i did what I had to do in order to protect you all and that, I'll never regret."

You stand to your feet "and you're not selfish for being afraid...confused and hurt."
He swallows hard, you lower your head and stare at the grass, vision blurring as tears well up in your eyes.
"That's why I spoke to your dad last night." He says, you look up "my dad?"
"Yeah, I sat with him, he really opened my eyes about your ability. Told me how it's always killed your confidence and I finally understood everything, why you didn't tell anyone. How scared you were, and just how proud your dad is..aannnddd Hiccup's protectiveness over you."

He smiles sheepishly "you've got the whole gang by your side."
You open your mouth to reply but are cut off by a familiar voice screeching "HOOKFAANNGGGGG!"
The floor shakes as the monstrous nightmare comes running towards you, looking very pleased with himself. He screeches to a halt as Snotlout emerges who then proceeds to run into his dragons side, face first making you wince.
"Dammit Hookfang." Snotlout groans holding his nose "why do you always do that?"
He stumbles backwards and rubs his eyes "oh." You and Fishlegs stare at him blankly "boy I'm glad to see you two! Wait...." He holds his finger up, pointing at the two of you darting it side to side "what are you doing out here...alone might I add?" He cocks an eyebrow and you roll your eyes "talking, that cool with you?"

"Talking." Snotlout mimics, making air quotes as he speaks "about what exactly?"
You huff in annoyance and push a gentle force at his legs, pushing them back, causing him to fall forward "that." You say coldly "alright, alright." He stands up dusting himself down "oh speaking of, got any cool tricks?"
"You as well? I've already got the twins trying to egg me on all the time." You reply, crossing your arms.

"Why are you out here?" Fishlegs questions the brunette "me? Ask mr thinks he's soooo funny over there!" Snotlout fumes pointing at Hookfang who looks completely unbothered "trying to have a nice fly but no!"
You smirk and pat Hookfangs side "the two of you are something else."

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You fly back home, not surprised to see Hiccup at your door waiting.
"Well well, how can I help you, chief?" You ask, sliding off Spear's back.
He chuckles and walks over to you "how was your day?"
"Mmmm, pretty good."
He wraps his arms around your waist "just good?" You brush the tip of your nose against his, his eyes soften "are you okay?"
"Yeah." You lean in and kiss his softly "I'm fine...perfect in fact."
He smiles "I'm glad." You bite your lip while staring deep into his eyes. Without saying anything you take his hand and guide him to your door. You let spear and toothless in first before going inside.
Hiccup flops down onto your bed and you immediately climb on top, straddling him. He grunts softly and sits up slightly, kissing you deeply.

You loved this man...so much.