Just One Night

25. Trepidation

Sarah

Wait for me. Trust me.

These are not so simple words that people say just like that. It holds a story behind it engraved with famished love, precious moments and delicate murmurs. When someone asks them to wait for them, it means to cease and wait for them to return no matter what. Trust? What's the basis of any relationship? Trust. And someone demands it without their arduous effort into it.

Do they even understand the meaning behind that? Or it's only critical to the one it's uttered to. Daniel came up and just asks me for it.

I didn't feel anything other than an insult. An insult to my devotion.

He expects me to be his while he gets to marry another woman for whatever reasons. At that moment I felt like he preceded his last name. They have so many glorious stories stacked up in their sack. He just insulted me. We didn't even survive a day.

His soft eyes and smile flash before me and all of my conclusions shatter away again. 'What if' is always a trepidation.
Since meeting him I have played it in the loop.

"No man of honour would ask that from a woman. " Rachel says patting my back.

I didn't want to disclose it all but I felt lonely and I couldn't stop myself. When She came from work and found me lying like a cadaver on my mattress. She pestered me and then I cried in her arms letting all of my emotions out. She didn't stop until I had given her everything in my mind.

"Sarah, these rich people think they own everyone. You did the right thing. " she continues but in the corner of my head, I want to believe Daniel had all the good intentions and he did love me.

"I remember his eyes and they -" I mumble and tear break through my cheek. My skin burns and my heart sequels. I am so lonely and it won't be nice for me ever.

I look into Rachel and I say," Maybe he is truly threatened into the marriage and he wants me ." I know I just want to believe that.

"Maybe. What did he imply by it all? You would be nothing but an affair for the world. You do not know him well to even trust him. What if he uses you all the while and never divorces that woman? That would break you. You should forget him. It will be hard but it's better. " she says holding onto my hands.

What if she is right? If I agreed then we will cross boundaries and I will be his woman outside marriage. I won't be that. I can't become the kind of person whom I hate. My father broke my mother's heart with another woman. I have despised him all my life.

I will never become that woman.

"You are right, Rachel. If it's fate, we will meet at the end. If not, at least I won't regret it." I smile meekly at my new best friend.

"That's a strong girl that Tyler talks about." She laughs. I smiled back at her.

"Let's go out for dinner in a nice place that will cheer you up."

"I don't want to go, Rachel."

"It won't work, we are going. Up and get ready." She pushes me to stand and forces me to get ready.

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Rachel tries to keep me in conversation about anything and everything as we walked to the place. Restrauts. Places. People.