Just One Night

31. Love and Trust

Daniel

I feel terrible. Having thoughts like this must be a crime. I can't fathom if I should even bring it to my mouth. The dark secret that I hold in my heart.

Giving it words is like putting my head into a guillotine and the Derek would be pushing its blade down. Would Dad approve my cut-off head and say it's more reasonable to face this than to let the secret out?

The scandal of the century for Coasters.
Everything will scatter breaking the tiny knots holding our family together.

It would be my last refuge though.

And I can't tell this secret to anyone until then. Not even Sarah.

"I don't understand. You shouldn't do this," Sarah almost begs. I feel happy about it. It gives me hope that she truly wants everything good for me.

So I will take my chances. I have thought about it all. Only one thing comes up. Why would Dad let the dirt get scavenged? One thing will lead to another if I am convicted in any way. The same goes for Brooklyn.

"This is a hoax. They are trying to scare me. I cannot let Dad have the satisfaction of bowing to him. How about I let it all happen and see where it goes?" I say to Sarah. She is scared and worried because she doesn't know my family.

She has no idea what lengths we could go to save the family name and its inheritance.

"You will invite investigation upon Daniella like this, Danny. You have to think of something else. Talk to Alicia, if she loves you she won't allow his father to go against you." She cries holding my hands. It's strange but I feel so relaxed. I am not doubtful about it one bit. This feeling makes me trust my inkling.

"I am not begging her, Sarah. And you don't know what I know." I say to her.

"Tell me then."

"I can't."

Not because I don't want to, it's because I simply can't put words to it.

We remain silent for long. The last time we sat in this house at this spot, we shared our first passionate kiss. She was so intoxicated.

I look at her lips and lean to steal the kiss but she interrupts me.

"Have you told Derek about your decision?" She asks.

"Did you just deny me the kiss, Sarah?" I ask her, hurt by her denial.

"Yes, I did. Because it's not the time for it." She says glaring at me. I can't stop but smile at her.

"Don't show me those dimples, Danny. You better answer my question." She says moving away from me a bit.

If anything good could happen, it would be our magical sex. I will release all of the little stress from my mind. Dimples.
I smile at her more prominently.
She rolls her eyes.

"Danny, you have to talk to your brother and work out an actual solution to this." She almost screams at me. All of my moods drain away for a while.

What does she think that Derek cares so much for me?

"Do you trust him more than me, Sarah?" I hiss at her.

"It's your words, Danny. I just want you to talk to your brother. He might know what to do. "She pushes me again. It would be the fifth time saying to her that I can't fully let Derek take care of it.
She would not understand.

" Actual solution. You know I have an actual solution. But the best one is this that I am talking about. " I hiss at her angrily.

"The one that gets you jail time.? Wow, you are filled with so much pride and hate for your brother to see him through." She says folding her arms around her.

I have been patronised by so many but this happening from her wounds me. I ache to avenge her for saying such a thing to me. But I can't, I love her to do that.

"You know nothing about Derek. My father. Don't demonise me, Sarah. I am far better than them. "I say other holding her arms tightly.

"This house you are sitting in, he saved it for you. He brought you back to your senses otherwise you would have been fucking like a whore. " she mumbles to me plain and clear. I mean to punish her, say something hurtful back. But I don't.

"What did you just say?"

What the fuck. How dare she? I had asked her to be mine until I sorted things with Alicia. She leaves me and now saying such a hurtful thing.

She closes her eyes and takes a slow breath. As if that will do anything good. I hold my anger within.

"So you finally said it, didn't you? That I am whore. " I couldn't contain it when she stares at me with those judging eyes again.

"I didn't mean it, Danny." She says reaching over to me. Her eyes gazed at my hands over her arms. I know I am hurting her, but I don't let go.

"It was loud and clear. " I glare at her.

"I am sorry."

"Just give me a space," I say as I let go of her and sit back. I am conflicted between wanting her out of the house or sitting beside me and comforting me. I just want her to say she trusted me. But she wouldn't. She is here to patronise me.

I hear her fast breathing and her gaze fixated on me.

"You trust nobody, Danny. You think you understand it all but have you ever tried to let people tell you if it's true or not," she says softly.

Yes, I trust nobody to confide. I have always wondered if tell Derek about it, would he understand? Maybe Derek will have his share of anger due to this.

I look at Sarah's soft eyes that gaze at me for answers. I struggle in my mind but let my shield fall. Right at this moment, I need love. A passionate kiss. To have a sense of belonging.

I reach towards her and hold the back of her neck. She licks her lips in awareness. She is as hot for me as I am.

I lean towards her but she moves her lips away. I bit the corner of her lips. She licks the little of my lips tempting me but withholding it deliberately.

"Kiss me."I breathe putting my forehead over hers. She trembles but doesn't.
"Please, Sarah."

Or I could just force myself into her and will give in. I wait patiently.

She holds the back of my neck and pulls me away. I stare at her in sheer dissaoomitment and anger for denying me such a simple request.

"I ask you to kiss me, Sarah and you wouldn't. How can I open up to you? Trust you. Tell you everything so you-"
I pause as she engulfs me in a passionate kiss.

"What else do you need to trust me? That's just ridiculous of you to demand a kiss like that." She says.

"Then what the fuck are you doing here.  You have come to Demean me? Talk good about everyone and shit me all over? " I scoff at her.

"You are-" she stops and glares at me.
I turn away from her in annoyance.

Silence engulfs us. I reckon she would leave rather she comes near to me and puts her head over my shoulder.

Such a small gesture and I melted down. All the anger just vanishes away. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close. She hugs me back lovingly.

"So here it is, Sarah Cole. I will tell you the biggest secret that I have kept in my heart," I gaze at her coldly. "I hope this will make you believe me that I don't have pride and ego. That I trust someone. And it's you. "

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